Fluffybunny's Sex Magnet 3 Journal

[FluffyBunny]

i really dont fuckin understand ....

is it because they are just too scared that i am radiating a player vibe? or what the hell is going on
i dont even consider myself radiating a player vibe or anything...

this girl already agree to meet me at X date X time told me she had a bf too i ignore it.
but still agree to meet. but kept on asking me why do i want to see her .
literally asking me why i want to meet her...
first i thought shes just testing me out . so i shoot her a random question for her to qualify to me...
then she literally asks me again whiling adding that she wont be able to flirt with me when i flirt with her =_=


seriously guys what kinda question is that. any girl knows . its two things sex or date.... or both...
of course there getting to know the girl included....
i cant like straight up tell her that really...

then theres other girls that one class closes off on me next class just opens back up....
then certain moments feels like close again.... and doesn't want anything to do with me =.=

what are they scared of? im the last person on earth that will hurt any girl....

this journey is driving me crazy lol

EDIT: the emotional..... roller coaster i am having .... i dont know you can even describe it , all these internal and external stuff is just too confusing .

EDIT2 : i feel so tired... i feel like i am done ... im so emotionally drain... from all these its so much to go through ... i dont even understand....
am i getting better reactions from girls then ever? pretty sure i am but there is so much doubt going on ... also i feel so lonely ... its like no one understands at all..... =.= . its like i am not what u people perceive me as.... its driving me crazy...
i dont know how to explain this ... wow

warning ... peopel who dont wanna read pusy sentimental stuff just dont read on hahahaha. gonna rant ...

man so all i am coming from is a place of love? jez i use to think its neediness. but it was LOL. wtf? k it wasnt entirely neediness..
my gosh ... it was like actually caring while thinking it would work... but that was so long ago....
now im so strong.... so stable... i just throw out random comments some are retarded as fuck girls laugh too ... sometimes i state out the most obvious retarded shit .... they dont even seem to mind haha. i just laugh about it .. cause i thought it was funny...
im so free spirit ... but at the same time i just want one fuckin girl that i like .... that can just understand me ...
i just dont understand... whats going on these days.... they seem to be a little more careful in getting closer to me...
i actually really like just commenting on anything that comes to my mind ...cause its really funny to me ... and i always laugh at it ... good realization haha.
i honestly dont see any missing element .... other then improving the qualities i already have now ..
anyways... wow ... and wow ......
im very emotional... and sentimental at times...

EDIT3 : shannon how will i even go about doing this.... i read instructions says stage 6 is the stage that balance things out ...
so im guessing right now im on the extreme end of these things therefore its too strong and making girls feel unsafe????
how on earth do i even make them feel safe.....
should mention in the instructions stage 1-3 makes u wanna shoot urself hahahahaa.
im really hopefully stage 4 is gonna be that special stage rofl....
im 1 more day on stage 3 and going to 4...

OK EDIT4: this is gonna be most realistic stuff.... too emotional up there lol

alright .... few things i really cannot wrap my head around and im not believing in it....
1. im being so attractive that girls literally are scared around me ?
2. they think im too much of a player that im gonna hurt them?
3. how is that even possible i didnt even experience the in between step where girls are attracted but r not too scared..
4. i mean seems like there r girls that aren't afraid either.... but i am not 100% sure cause i dont like them... so i didnt go for it enough to know what is really up ... ( currently havnt found a girl that i am attracted to that arent afraid ) so thats not gonna wok out either

i cant see how this can work out atm.... how can i make them feel safe.... im talking about the most.. normal things on the planet ... and they react like that... i dont see what else i can do ...