01-27-2014, 02:50 PM
Day 11
Woke up pretty angry at my ex today and I have no idea why I was angry. Ran AM5 Ultrasonics for like 20 hours or so ( 8-9 hours during sleep ), so that might've contributed to the anger. It still bothers me that I'm angry at her. I shouldn't feel anything right now, everything's dead and gone. The anger lasted for about an hour or so. Felt very OK after that.
I think I really felt that the whole relationship could've been rescued if we've had proper communication and me not being the "nice guy". I mean really, consciously speaking, after I've read the No More Mr. Nice Guy book by Robert Glover, it's no wonder she left me. I was honestly surprised that she didn't left me earlier. I really can't understand this anger thing. Maybe somewhere secretly-but-not-so-secretly I've felt insulted by her semi-harsh refusal to meet me for a get-together and blocking me on Facebook. Maybe my subconscious really doesn't want me to take the blame for myself and place her on the blame pedestal. Maybe it's just my emotional response to her rejection ( or break-up ). I don't know for sure. I'll sleep on it, maybe I can find an answer that will put this anger to rest.
Otherwise, nothing new to write about.
Woke up pretty angry at my ex today and I have no idea why I was angry. Ran AM5 Ultrasonics for like 20 hours or so ( 8-9 hours during sleep ), so that might've contributed to the anger. It still bothers me that I'm angry at her. I shouldn't feel anything right now, everything's dead and gone. The anger lasted for about an hour or so. Felt very OK after that.
I think I really felt that the whole relationship could've been rescued if we've had proper communication and me not being the "nice guy". I mean really, consciously speaking, after I've read the No More Mr. Nice Guy book by Robert Glover, it's no wonder she left me. I was honestly surprised that she didn't left me earlier. I really can't understand this anger thing. Maybe somewhere secretly-but-not-so-secretly I've felt insulted by her semi-harsh refusal to meet me for a get-together and blocking me on Facebook. Maybe my subconscious really doesn't want me to take the blame for myself and place her on the blame pedestal. Maybe it's just my emotional response to her rejection ( or break-up ). I don't know for sure. I'll sleep on it, maybe I can find an answer that will put this anger to rest.
Otherwise, nothing new to write about.
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