01-12-2014, 05:06 PM
So started on Emotional pain relief and healing aid 3 days ago now. There has been some interesting dreams coming up so far, these dreams aren't showing my fears but have been showing me what life would be like without any fears or insecurity.
I'll be documenting a lot more about my dreams rather than just what appears outwardly as I suspect this sub will be doing some heavy inner lifting and changes
The first dream that I had was around my ex. I expected this would crop up as even though I have been through events that most other people would consider a lot more traumatic, this for me was the most traumatic time of my life. In the dream me and a friend were out in town clubbing but weren't feeling it that night so decided to leave he drove off with me in the passenger seat we ended up at my ex girlfriends place, I was really nervous and scared going there but once I arrived there I got into this mood of I don't care anymore I didn't feel any fear or anxiety or insecurity at all I just genuinely didn't care. Then we ended up hooking up, it felt fun and exciting but at the same time like I had let go of all attachment and expectations. She told me she was hooking up with another one of her ex's and that he was better than me, It didn't phase me in the slightest. This whole time she was getting feistier and feistier, she just couldn't seem to get enough of me. For me a whole load of my insecurities, fears and anxieties just didn't exist anymore.
The second dream wasn't quite so vivid. I was over at a friends house and outside were a group of guys that I would generally find very intimidating. When I went to leave they started making fun of me and being a bit threatening. Again I didn't care I ended up poking a bit of fun at myself and at them and laughing with them for a while and having a good chat.
So far very interesting. I've been feeling a little down but I've been sick so can't tell whether its from the sub or not.
The rest of my life is going well. I seem to be able to connect with people more so than ever having made good friends with my flat mates and generally being a bit more comfortable around other people. Work just keeps improving year on year now, I'm getting more responsibilities again this year including co-running annual reviews on 15 staff that I help manage and running the largest projects in the company. So there's bound to be another good payrise again this year so more money to buy subs
The improvements at work have been really consistent ever since I used AM2011, not just work but productivity in general.
That about sums it up. I'll add some more later on but I have to say for someone who's sick and just back at work after the holidays I'm in a very good space.
I'll be documenting a lot more about my dreams rather than just what appears outwardly as I suspect this sub will be doing some heavy inner lifting and changes
The first dream that I had was around my ex. I expected this would crop up as even though I have been through events that most other people would consider a lot more traumatic, this for me was the most traumatic time of my life. In the dream me and a friend were out in town clubbing but weren't feeling it that night so decided to leave he drove off with me in the passenger seat we ended up at my ex girlfriends place, I was really nervous and scared going there but once I arrived there I got into this mood of I don't care anymore I didn't feel any fear or anxiety or insecurity at all I just genuinely didn't care. Then we ended up hooking up, it felt fun and exciting but at the same time like I had let go of all attachment and expectations. She told me she was hooking up with another one of her ex's and that he was better than me, It didn't phase me in the slightest. This whole time she was getting feistier and feistier, she just couldn't seem to get enough of me. For me a whole load of my insecurities, fears and anxieties just didn't exist anymore.
The second dream wasn't quite so vivid. I was over at a friends house and outside were a group of guys that I would generally find very intimidating. When I went to leave they started making fun of me and being a bit threatening. Again I didn't care I ended up poking a bit of fun at myself and at them and laughing with them for a while and having a good chat.
So far very interesting. I've been feeling a little down but I've been sick so can't tell whether its from the sub or not.
The rest of my life is going well. I seem to be able to connect with people more so than ever having made good friends with my flat mates and generally being a bit more comfortable around other people. Work just keeps improving year on year now, I'm getting more responsibilities again this year including co-running annual reviews on 15 staff that I help manage and running the largest projects in the company. So there's bound to be another good payrise again this year so more money to buy subs
The improvements at work have been really consistent ever since I used AM2011, not just work but productivity in general.That about sums it up. I'll add some more later on but I have to say for someone who's sick and just back at work after the holidays I'm in a very good space.
The only person in life that can ever hold you back is yourself. So get out of your own way and start living the life you always dreamed of
