01-06-2014, 03:12 PM
Alpha is hitting hard...whether it's brain exhaustion or a bit of 'depression' resurfacing..I am exhausted and just want to do shit on my terms. I've even taken the last three days of from Jujitsu Training which I have not done since I started 8 months ago.
My free lance work in commercial production has wound down, and my PA job in editorial production is not worth keeping anymore. I've been so focused on training myself I have no clients left from personal training. So I am at ground zero with finances. I'm going to get a waiter, bar, or barista job to tied me over and finally get entrepreneurial. But I can't bring myself to get out there right now.
My dreams have been insane lately-the theme of me running or being second in command of a large rebel army in the future or in space have come up 5 times now...no I'm not a big Star Wars fan, yes time travel and supernatural abilities are involved.
Also I have been having reoccuring dreams of me third wheeling with a close friend and being super painfully attracted to his girlfriend. There is only one girl like this in my own life...and I actually bumped into her and her boyfriend the day after the dream. The weird thing is-this dude and I hit it off crazy well and I wasn't even sweating the girl anymore. I like her alot as a friend now and am genuinely happy for her...but the dark side doth seep through in the dreams and the subconcious--especially with the negativity removal stage stirring the pot.
My free lance work in commercial production has wound down, and my PA job in editorial production is not worth keeping anymore. I've been so focused on training myself I have no clients left from personal training. So I am at ground zero with finances. I'm going to get a waiter, bar, or barista job to tied me over and finally get entrepreneurial. But I can't bring myself to get out there right now.
My dreams have been insane lately-the theme of me running or being second in command of a large rebel army in the future or in space have come up 5 times now...no I'm not a big Star Wars fan, yes time travel and supernatural abilities are involved.
Also I have been having reoccuring dreams of me third wheeling with a close friend and being super painfully attracted to his girlfriend. There is only one girl like this in my own life...and I actually bumped into her and her boyfriend the day after the dream. The weird thing is-this dude and I hit it off crazy well and I wasn't even sweating the girl anymore. I like her alot as a friend now and am genuinely happy for her...but the dark side doth seep through in the dreams and the subconcious--especially with the negativity removal stage stirring the pot.
1. There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness.
2. A thinker sees his own actions as experiments and questions... Success and failure are for him answers above all.
3. I would not know what the spirit of a philosopher might wish more then to be than a good dancer.-F.N.
2. A thinker sees his own actions as experiments and questions... Success and failure are for him answers above all.
3. I would not know what the spirit of a philosopher might wish more then to be than a good dancer.-F.N.
