Stage 2, Day 18,
I'd say that my urgency for anything to happen has mostly disolved. I turn over most of my feelings of urgency to Universe or whatever you want to call it. Most of my actions are instinctive, and I'd say that they're well timed.
Yesterday, I had a negative incident that answered a powerful question I had about the Law of Attraction. Funny enough, LOA answered it in the best way possible. So here's the story:
Last week, I went to an event where a friend of mine was there; he's always cheery and happy. Abraham Hicks' material says that being in a positive state of mind is the catalyst to receiving everything you want. So why is he not getting what he wants?
His finances, his professional situation are at a stalemate. Funny enough, his relatively reflects mine.
So yesterday, I through a dinner event at an all-you-can-eat restaurant thatI like, to celebrate the end of my internship; only he came. In a one-on-one setting, he not only proved that he doesn't understand social boundaries (he ordered way more than he could eat, forcing me to eat the rest of his food), he dumped his anger and frustration at life situations into our conversations though I repeatedly changed topics, and he was downright offensive to the waitresses (did 'asian voice').
I even tried to explain to him that a reaction to any information that comes in doesn't have to create any emotional response, and that you're able to change your relationship to negative experiences. He replies "But I have to feel these emotions, because I face these every day" (?)
Anyways, I completely 'got it' after that night; some people who have positive shells are negative at their core, and completely lost.
That lesson was more valuable than the 29$ i put down for sushi that evening (I tipped well because a half-bottle of soja sauce was tipped, unbeknownst to us, and soaked up the table cloth).
My associations are important, but my relationship to myself is the single most important thing to master. Always picking a better-feeling thought over a worse-feeling thought every single time I have the choice (and I follow through).
Now, my frustrations are completely gone. This last day, I've felt a bit strange, possibly because I started drinking again with doing schoolwork (helps out a lot) after a few month hiatus. But I'm doing what I can to feel great.
I had two opportunities to "Level Up", which is a term coined by language teacher Moses McCormick to mean 'talking with a native speaker in a language that you're learning'. I did it with Italian and Korean; chatted someone up in line at Tim Hortons after hearing them speak in Italian, and a (highly attractive) female co-worker that I know speaks Korean. She keeps touching me on the arm and saying how quick I'm learning and how good I am
Spending a lot of time filling out my placement report, to hand in before I leave town in 4 days. I should record another video before I take off.
By the way, I had no problem telling the guy at the event how offensive he was being. Might be due to AM.
I'd say that my urgency for anything to happen has mostly disolved. I turn over most of my feelings of urgency to Universe or whatever you want to call it. Most of my actions are instinctive, and I'd say that they're well timed.
Yesterday, I had a negative incident that answered a powerful question I had about the Law of Attraction. Funny enough, LOA answered it in the best way possible. So here's the story:
Last week, I went to an event where a friend of mine was there; he's always cheery and happy. Abraham Hicks' material says that being in a positive state of mind is the catalyst to receiving everything you want. So why is he not getting what he wants?
His finances, his professional situation are at a stalemate. Funny enough, his relatively reflects mine.
So yesterday, I through a dinner event at an all-you-can-eat restaurant thatI like, to celebrate the end of my internship; only he came. In a one-on-one setting, he not only proved that he doesn't understand social boundaries (he ordered way more than he could eat, forcing me to eat the rest of his food), he dumped his anger and frustration at life situations into our conversations though I repeatedly changed topics, and he was downright offensive to the waitresses (did 'asian voice').
I even tried to explain to him that a reaction to any information that comes in doesn't have to create any emotional response, and that you're able to change your relationship to negative experiences. He replies "But I have to feel these emotions, because I face these every day" (?)
Anyways, I completely 'got it' after that night; some people who have positive shells are negative at their core, and completely lost.
That lesson was more valuable than the 29$ i put down for sushi that evening (I tipped well because a half-bottle of soja sauce was tipped, unbeknownst to us, and soaked up the table cloth).
My associations are important, but my relationship to myself is the single most important thing to master. Always picking a better-feeling thought over a worse-feeling thought every single time I have the choice (and I follow through).
Now, my frustrations are completely gone. This last day, I've felt a bit strange, possibly because I started drinking again with doing schoolwork (helps out a lot) after a few month hiatus. But I'm doing what I can to feel great.
I had two opportunities to "Level Up", which is a term coined by language teacher Moses McCormick to mean 'talking with a native speaker in a language that you're learning'. I did it with Italian and Korean; chatted someone up in line at Tim Hortons after hearing them speak in Italian, and a (highly attractive) female co-worker that I know speaks Korean. She keeps touching me on the arm and saying how quick I'm learning and how good I am
Spending a lot of time filling out my placement report, to hand in before I leave town in 4 days. I should record another video before I take off.
By the way, I had no problem telling the guy at the event how offensive he was being. Might be due to AM.
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