12-08-2013, 12:59 PM
Tried FEFT. So far it seems to do something. I was making some music and I noticed the feelings that popped up and tapped on those. It kind of got me into more of a flow, less self doubt. It just made me realize how badly distorted my thoughts are when I'm making music. It could be something really good but I just think it's crap.
Now I've been through stuff like this before. The one mistake I always make is getting way too excited and ahead of myself. So this time I'm just gonna keep using it and see what happens. It's pretty good so far, just curious to see how far it can actually take me.
Something I realized though with a lot of this inner work. It seems like when I think of life I think of it as pain and struggle. Anything I do really. So if I'm always operating out of that mindset everything is gonna look hard. It's the difference between doing and trying. Trying implies that there is a struggle, that something is standing in your way. In my case whatever emotional baggage I still haven't cleared up. Doing is when you get that crap out of the way and you can just do something. It's too soon to tell, but I think when I force myself to make music for the sake of improving I know it will be good for me. But the negative thoughts cause resistance and that's what makes it difficult. If I can clear out all that negativity it's like it kind of just happens, there's no trying, there's only action. That goes for anything really I guess.
Now I've been through stuff like this before. The one mistake I always make is getting way too excited and ahead of myself. So this time I'm just gonna keep using it and see what happens. It's pretty good so far, just curious to see how far it can actually take me.
Something I realized though with a lot of this inner work. It seems like when I think of life I think of it as pain and struggle. Anything I do really. So if I'm always operating out of that mindset everything is gonna look hard. It's the difference between doing and trying. Trying implies that there is a struggle, that something is standing in your way. In my case whatever emotional baggage I still haven't cleared up. Doing is when you get that crap out of the way and you can just do something. It's too soon to tell, but I think when I force myself to make music for the sake of improving I know it will be good for me. But the negative thoughts cause resistance and that's what makes it difficult. If I can clear out all that negativity it's like it kind of just happens, there's no trying, there's only action. That goes for anything really I guess.
