11-28-2013, 08:48 PM
Stage 2, Day 3
Woke up feeling better than usual with a more powerful voice; caused by my magic drink and desire I suppose.
My morning rituals are now geared towards making me feel as joyous as possible; this is in Abraham-Hicks school of Law of Attraction.
But it works; the very best example I've used is the bus. This morning, the EXACT bus that I want to take shows up as I'm walking up to the bus stop. I did a short run to make sure that it wouldn't take off. Then again midday; I thought I'd do bus-stop hopping, where I'd walk from one station to another to get access to more buses, but I thought I would sit down and eat my meal instead. Two seconds later, the bus comes.
At work, I come across a minor situation that starts a snowball effect of negativity. It was my boss changing a plan that I made for an employee event.
It wasn't his action that set it off; it was what my co-op planner would think of it; "is she going to make a big deal that I didn't make a PERFECT plan? Come on, I've been in this job for only 4 weeks.. how could she expect me to do it perfectly? She better not fail me for this reason, let me plan what I would scream at her in case that would happen!"
Of course, this is rehearsing negativity and negative outcomes; so I tried to tap it away; relatively successful; I was in front of my boss for most of that day, after all.
He drives me to a bus station (my house is pretty far from the place) and in this case the buses took a little while.
My feelings on the LOA is that you need to have the resonancy of what you want, feeling as joyous as you can, the ability to spot a worthwhile opportunity, and then taking action on it. This program will do the last one, and I'm working on doing the others.
After co-op, I had an impromptu hangout with a friend. We were at the university complex, and there was a Jewish event (Hannukah is today). I catch an older woman check me out and the girl I'm with, then she opens us "Do you know what time it is?". I tell her. Then she asks how long it would take to get to xyz stadium; probably 30 minutes by car. We have small chat and then she goes.
I've been getting eye contact from different women, and they were eyeing my female friend as well.
We part ways, and I get ready for an open mic.
Turns out the open mic was a bust; they were having their 2 year anniversary, so they had a band playing the whole evening. I took up a table, sat my guitar down and had a beer; left after 30 minutes. I'll be back next week.
Why didn't I socialize with people?
Here's the deal about me; I've had an ear operation when I was 9. I have selective hearing, and I can't hear diddly squat in loud places. Also, my baritone voice gets drowned out easily in the noise; women have it easier in this realm, given their naturally higher timbre. So what happens if you can't hear what people say, and people can't understand you? You stay quiet.
But I did get the chance to sit down and learn a couple of things about performance; first, I find that bands think that LOUD is the magic key to everything. In fact, that just jumbles everything together and makes a mess, in my opinion.
Second, I figure this band thought that LOUD was their only option. Cause they didn't use any dynamics; so the loud volume becomes normal to people, so they'll lose their attention.
Third, the guitarist was good; really good. Like Joe Satriani good. But he kept playing his solos blazing fast all the time.
Another open mic tomorrow at 9PM, and this event is happening for me next week instead. Another open mic on Friday. After that, I should do my own originals instead of covers.
I also got into a mini Harry Potter video phase; I'm playing the first HP game on PC (from 2001)
Woke up feeling better than usual with a more powerful voice; caused by my magic drink and desire I suppose.
My morning rituals are now geared towards making me feel as joyous as possible; this is in Abraham-Hicks school of Law of Attraction.
But it works; the very best example I've used is the bus. This morning, the EXACT bus that I want to take shows up as I'm walking up to the bus stop. I did a short run to make sure that it wouldn't take off. Then again midday; I thought I'd do bus-stop hopping, where I'd walk from one station to another to get access to more buses, but I thought I would sit down and eat my meal instead. Two seconds later, the bus comes.
At work, I come across a minor situation that starts a snowball effect of negativity. It was my boss changing a plan that I made for an employee event.
It wasn't his action that set it off; it was what my co-op planner would think of it; "is she going to make a big deal that I didn't make a PERFECT plan? Come on, I've been in this job for only 4 weeks.. how could she expect me to do it perfectly? She better not fail me for this reason, let me plan what I would scream at her in case that would happen!"
Of course, this is rehearsing negativity and negative outcomes; so I tried to tap it away; relatively successful; I was in front of my boss for most of that day, after all.
He drives me to a bus station (my house is pretty far from the place) and in this case the buses took a little while.
My feelings on the LOA is that you need to have the resonancy of what you want, feeling as joyous as you can, the ability to spot a worthwhile opportunity, and then taking action on it. This program will do the last one, and I'm working on doing the others.
After co-op, I had an impromptu hangout with a friend. We were at the university complex, and there was a Jewish event (Hannukah is today). I catch an older woman check me out and the girl I'm with, then she opens us "Do you know what time it is?". I tell her. Then she asks how long it would take to get to xyz stadium; probably 30 minutes by car. We have small chat and then she goes.
I've been getting eye contact from different women, and they were eyeing my female friend as well.
We part ways, and I get ready for an open mic.
Turns out the open mic was a bust; they were having their 2 year anniversary, so they had a band playing the whole evening. I took up a table, sat my guitar down and had a beer; left after 30 minutes. I'll be back next week.
Why didn't I socialize with people?
Here's the deal about me; I've had an ear operation when I was 9. I have selective hearing, and I can't hear diddly squat in loud places. Also, my baritone voice gets drowned out easily in the noise; women have it easier in this realm, given their naturally higher timbre. So what happens if you can't hear what people say, and people can't understand you? You stay quiet.
But I did get the chance to sit down and learn a couple of things about performance; first, I find that bands think that LOUD is the magic key to everything. In fact, that just jumbles everything together and makes a mess, in my opinion.
Second, I figure this band thought that LOUD was their only option. Cause they didn't use any dynamics; so the loud volume becomes normal to people, so they'll lose their attention.
Third, the guitarist was good; really good. Like Joe Satriani good. But he kept playing his solos blazing fast all the time.
Another open mic tomorrow at 9PM, and this event is happening for me next week instead. Another open mic on Friday. After that, I should do my own originals instead of covers.
I also got into a mini Harry Potter video phase; I'm playing the first HP game on PC (from 2001)
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