11-27-2013, 07:16 PM
Stage 2, Day 1
I was a few hours late for my co-op, as I got a cleaning at the dentist's with a filling.
At work, I had so much of this amazing feeling that I was holding back tears for some moments of the day; this is probably due to A Course in Miracles and EFT. I've taken a short break from A Course in Miracles.
This is my second week in FLR Korean, with different phrases and connection words, so I can do more complex phrases in Korean. I have a friend who will correct them later on.
I'm losing focus, losing time, and it always feels like I don't have enough time.
Did a mastermind session with a repeat visitor; I went into teacher, and unloaded a bunch of knowledge on performance, and was able to put it into terms that a beginner could understand.
Stage 2, Day 2
I got to work a little late; huge snow storm in my city, so there was a problem with walking through the heavy snow.
Though my work abilities are good, I was back in forth on crazy stammering, studdering, or not communicating well, and speaking cristal clear. This was all in French. I think that it's my emotional state, and fear is the wrench in my spokes. When I pick up the phone, I come across clear, but when I want to make an interjective observation, I might not be understood.
Also, I'm starting to get mad and frustrated; this is a good feeling to have it happen, since the first day felt like it was too much smooth sailing. I want to breakthrough in my music career, and had virtually no time to practice given co-op and work; I pick up the guitar and my voice is complete shit. I was so angry and I resolved to fix that forever. I'm going to practice voice for a long time. Goddamnit Shannon where's the vocalist sub!! lol But I'll be practicing regardless, especially on a POWERFUL voice.
I'm feeling more indifferent; this girl at work that I used have a to crush on left my job, and is (right now) messaging me to get a coffee; I kind of don't care.
In short, feeling a whirlwind of emotions; it feels terrible to not communicate/not feel heard; it feels like I'm being restrained and corseted. I'll tap it out and go to bed.
Speaking of bed, I heard of this recipe that helps you fall straight asleep; 1 cup of warm water, 2 tablespoons of apple cider vinegar, and 1 tablespoon of honey. I'm told it's tasty; I'll give it a try.
I was a few hours late for my co-op, as I got a cleaning at the dentist's with a filling.
At work, I had so much of this amazing feeling that I was holding back tears for some moments of the day; this is probably due to A Course in Miracles and EFT. I've taken a short break from A Course in Miracles.
This is my second week in FLR Korean, with different phrases and connection words, so I can do more complex phrases in Korean. I have a friend who will correct them later on.
I'm losing focus, losing time, and it always feels like I don't have enough time.
Did a mastermind session with a repeat visitor; I went into teacher, and unloaded a bunch of knowledge on performance, and was able to put it into terms that a beginner could understand.
Stage 2, Day 2
I got to work a little late; huge snow storm in my city, so there was a problem with walking through the heavy snow.
Though my work abilities are good, I was back in forth on crazy stammering, studdering, or not communicating well, and speaking cristal clear. This was all in French. I think that it's my emotional state, and fear is the wrench in my spokes. When I pick up the phone, I come across clear, but when I want to make an interjective observation, I might not be understood.
Also, I'm starting to get mad and frustrated; this is a good feeling to have it happen, since the first day felt like it was too much smooth sailing. I want to breakthrough in my music career, and had virtually no time to practice given co-op and work; I pick up the guitar and my voice is complete shit. I was so angry and I resolved to fix that forever. I'm going to practice voice for a long time. Goddamnit Shannon where's the vocalist sub!! lol But I'll be practicing regardless, especially on a POWERFUL voice.
I'm feeling more indifferent; this girl at work that I used have a to crush on left my job, and is (right now) messaging me to get a coffee; I kind of don't care.
In short, feeling a whirlwind of emotions; it feels terrible to not communicate/not feel heard; it feels like I'm being restrained and corseted. I'll tap it out and go to bed.
Speaking of bed, I heard of this recipe that helps you fall straight asleep; 1 cup of warm water, 2 tablespoons of apple cider vinegar, and 1 tablespoon of honey. I'm told it's tasty; I'll give it a try.
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