(11-23-2013, 04:42 AM)SargeMaximus Wrote:(11-22-2013, 10:42 PM)mat422 Wrote: All in all I'm still struggling and I'm pretty much done pretending to be fine when I'm really not. I find that being open and honest does a world of good for my mental health as opposed to trying to convince myself things are ok. Even if it's just being open with myself.
That's the key right there, dude.
As long as you do things for YOU, you'll be fine.
It's when you start taking other people's beliefs (like you can't get past the shame or you can't live an awesome life because of your background? lol, F*ck that!) that you REALLY take damage.
Stop looking to outside sources or other people for how your life should go or to explain your life, YOU, and you alone, have that power/responsibility.
And watch this:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hu5oaty0u...Q&index=61
You're right. I guess I'm just stuck in a kind of catch 22. In order to overcome a lot of this I have to believe that it's possible. But deep down I don't believe. I don't really know how to fix that. I can say I believe, but it's that conflict between saying something and the belief itself.
Good video though. It helps me remember what the right sort of path is for me.
