Getting my shit together

[Darwinn]

Thanks for the input Shannon,

So a first report on the sub. I turned it on for about three hours the first night and then on again just before I went to bed. Even though it was on ultra sonic I couldn't sleep so I turned it off half way through the night. Next day I was tired and a little foggy, I increased my exposure the next night and last night had it on the whole way through as I figured at least I can sleep in on the weekend.

Same thing that others say about subs with fatigue etc, but an interesting first effect I've noticed was a feeling of self respect. It was interesting because a few things that I do, like telling people everything about myself to seek approval, or trying to be funny or explain myself seemed to be accompanied with feelings of "you know what I don't do this sort of thing", and "I'm not going to disrespect myself by bullshitting because I'm better than that".

This was definitely novel, I don't have thoughts of self value like that, intellectually I know that I should but I don't act like it. It's a fleeting and small feeling, but one I really like and hope will grow.