09-19-2010, 01:14 PM
Last night was an eye opener and if this is what things are like after only 2 months of the sub I dare to think what they'll be like after 6.
I was definitely the centre figure and the 'introducer'; I introduced one of my friends to two of my other friends during the start of the night, then again later on introduced all three of them to another two friends. It was sort of like a meta-social circle and they all got on with each other really well. I'm really liking that effect of the sub; I didn't take pride in being seen as the one to introduce them all to each other, I took pride in being able to 'give'. I'm Less self concerned, more giving - that is the social effect of the sub. More compassion for others, less pretence. I don't expect anything from anyone. Especially women. I don't carry the mentality "every women wants me". With regards women I seem to have a complete lack of mentality altogether. It makes me lighter and more fluid, the result is charisma and the natural ability to charm. I can allow myself to be completely open and vulnerable because I have the strength and conviction to do so. The attachment to others bullshit was killed by the Alpha set and now, as a result, I can expose myself socially and have genuine closeness and connection with others without the unconscious fear that I may lose it; that I need it; that I'm not complete with out it. I can interact with a Women naturally, honestly and openly and the result of that isn't insecurities I did't want the world to see (because they've gone) but charm. They respond back very positivity.
Early on in the night I came back from the bar to an out a terrace with a just small canopy protecting everyone from the Torrential rain. One of my friends had somehow got into an argument with three very, very angry girls. They where clearly looking for a fight and this friend of mine takes the bait on things like that. There was a fourth girl outside of the argument but friends with the other girls and I got talking to her. We were joking about the pettiness of it. She said I looked familiar (I've never seen her before) and we tried to see if there was any mutual friends between us. After chatting for a bit it turns out she's cousins with someone I know and one of the girls arguing is her sister. I told her that her sister must've got her aggressive streak from her cousin. The 15 minute argument was still going on at this point and the angriest of the three angry girls turned on me asking why I said she had an aggressive streak. She had venom in her eyes but I naturally held eye contact anyway and within 15 seconds she became submissive towards me, apologetic and explaining why she was upset with him (to be fair he had made a comment, but it didn't warrant that level of abuse) All 4 of the girls were appeased and started showing signs of attraction towards me. I hadn't seen anything like it before.
Throughout the night I was approached several times. Once by a 37 year old women who's husband was on holiday. She seemed on her own and like she just wanted a chat but she had approached me and I don't often get approached so it was worth noting. Another girl approached me and started talking about mango cigarettes she bought and started shoving them in my pocket even though I told her I don't smoke. Another girl approached me started talking about fish-boles. It was very bizarre. I got told I looked 18 about 6 different times throughout the night which I thought was a weird coincidence.
Lots of attraction throughout the night. One girl who I know as a friend-with-casual-history bumped into me and responded very positivity. A hug I couldn't get out of. Another girl who I'm, again, friends-with-casual-history followed me around like a puppy all night, kept stopping her friend to take couple like pictures of us together. On Wednesday I move onto stage 3 of the sub and so far the effects have been nothing but brilliant
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I was definitely the centre figure and the 'introducer'; I introduced one of my friends to two of my other friends during the start of the night, then again later on introduced all three of them to another two friends. It was sort of like a meta-social circle and they all got on with each other really well. I'm really liking that effect of the sub; I didn't take pride in being seen as the one to introduce them all to each other, I took pride in being able to 'give'. I'm Less self concerned, more giving - that is the social effect of the sub. More compassion for others, less pretence. I don't expect anything from anyone. Especially women. I don't carry the mentality "every women wants me". With regards women I seem to have a complete lack of mentality altogether. It makes me lighter and more fluid, the result is charisma and the natural ability to charm. I can allow myself to be completely open and vulnerable because I have the strength and conviction to do so. The attachment to others bullshit was killed by the Alpha set and now, as a result, I can expose myself socially and have genuine closeness and connection with others without the unconscious fear that I may lose it; that I need it; that I'm not complete with out it. I can interact with a Women naturally, honestly and openly and the result of that isn't insecurities I did't want the world to see (because they've gone) but charm. They respond back very positivity.
Early on in the night I came back from the bar to an out a terrace with a just small canopy protecting everyone from the Torrential rain. One of my friends had somehow got into an argument with three very, very angry girls. They where clearly looking for a fight and this friend of mine takes the bait on things like that. There was a fourth girl outside of the argument but friends with the other girls and I got talking to her. We were joking about the pettiness of it. She said I looked familiar (I've never seen her before) and we tried to see if there was any mutual friends between us. After chatting for a bit it turns out she's cousins with someone I know and one of the girls arguing is her sister. I told her that her sister must've got her aggressive streak from her cousin. The 15 minute argument was still going on at this point and the angriest of the three angry girls turned on me asking why I said she had an aggressive streak. She had venom in her eyes but I naturally held eye contact anyway and within 15 seconds she became submissive towards me, apologetic and explaining why she was upset with him (to be fair he had made a comment, but it didn't warrant that level of abuse) All 4 of the girls were appeased and started showing signs of attraction towards me. I hadn't seen anything like it before.
Throughout the night I was approached several times. Once by a 37 year old women who's husband was on holiday. She seemed on her own and like she just wanted a chat but she had approached me and I don't often get approached so it was worth noting. Another girl approached me and started talking about mango cigarettes she bought and started shoving them in my pocket even though I told her I don't smoke. Another girl approached me started talking about fish-boles. It was very bizarre. I got told I looked 18 about 6 different times throughout the night which I thought was a weird coincidence.
Lots of attraction throughout the night. One girl who I know as a friend-with-casual-history bumped into me and responded very positivity. A hug I couldn't get out of. Another girl who I'm, again, friends-with-casual-history followed me around like a puppy all night, kept stopping her friend to take couple like pictures of us together. On Wednesday I move onto stage 3 of the sub and so far the effects have been nothing but brilliant
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“To be normal is the ideal aim of the unsuccessful.” - Carl Jung
