08-30-2013, 03:54 AM
Stage 2 Day 32
Today i am finishing with stage 2 so i will write report from stage 2.
First 2 weeks i had major mood swings which led to being angry/depressed - but after them they all went away .
Had couple of dreams which last was today - mostly in dreams i am fighting and then when i feel alone - a "new friend" comes and stands by me. I am more comfortable when entering anywhere, feel very loose and i dont ask premission for anything but i am more kind to people. I am at moment - analyzing whats happening and not jumping to conclusions - its funny how people get lost in their subconcious and start spinning around. I am thinking and trying to make more money - so i need to leave country which i will tell you is almost impossible as NON EU citizen . But i am looking for ways because i am high deegree/quality employee - and I WILL FIND WAY.
What happend
- Body is more relaxed
- I got back in shape - down on body fat 11% and having atheltic look again
- Diabetes is under control in great way
- Been angry most of the time on some small things
- Conflict with a lot of people ( always had but now on higher level )
- Constantly working on my dream ( i was always really hard working person - but now i have clarity when i am doing something "its like matrix - i see code" )
- When i want something i am working on it ( always did this - but now have calmness and as i mentioned in upper row - i have feeling that i know what i am doing and i am not spinning around )
- Working skills jumped in last 2 months more than in last 8 months
- I am thinking about making more money all the time, so i started working on going out of country - going trough some really roght stuff because of this - i am working + 4 more hours on already 10 working hours every day including sathurday and sunday - getting a lot of rejections because OF BEING NON EU CITIZEN but i will find a way.
- Its all about bussnis , literally thinking only about that - forgot about anything else.
- Girls, approaches become easier and smoother - like hot girls "belong" to me ... and if i want them just come and introduce myself
-I am not talking anymore a lot - just sitting and listening - when i want to say something i say it direct and short. People arent complaining or saying anything even though they should maybe because i am not like that - so i am expecting that in future
- More taken care of - hair/skin/clothing always in place
- More cleaning of room, apartmant - tidier
- Angry/depressed a lot - like i am having no tollerance for people who are close to me to act like idiots ( by idiots i mean like children - THEY ARE NOT ALLOWED TO DO THAT cause they are not children)
- on the other hand more carring towards younger people
- Wanting to help people who dont have money - i need to make money first
- Diabetes under great control
- Walk is more calming relaxing , like i am walking somewhere alwways with a mission ( have mission since age of 16 - but now like i am walking towards it when i walk )
- Getting looks from people - yestereday girl was passing with her boyfriend i reammeber shirt ( have no idea why - it was strange ) - so i went to toilet and someone tapped me on sholder - i turned and it was her . She gave me her number on paper, and told me "call me" she was hb 9 really nice body.
- Vivid dreams of future, fighiting , loosing - then "new friend" coming ( random people in diffrent dreams but noone close to me ) and helping me with things cause they are right.
- Less going out , sitting at home and thinking ( before i went 5 times a week out even though i work 10h per day + workout 1h - i would go out and not sleep)
- Enjoy being alone more.
- When i am out i am really enjoying everything - even air that i breath
- Having warm feeling inside me and need for partner - which i didnt have for i think 5 years - almost forgot how it feels like to have a girlfriend ( not just friends with benefits).
- Mood swings
- New ideas
anyhow this pretty much sums it all in STAGE 2
Stage 3 - starting tommorow.
Today i am finishing with stage 2 so i will write report from stage 2.
First 2 weeks i had major mood swings which led to being angry/depressed - but after them they all went away .
Had couple of dreams which last was today - mostly in dreams i am fighting and then when i feel alone - a "new friend" comes and stands by me. I am more comfortable when entering anywhere, feel very loose and i dont ask premission for anything but i am more kind to people. I am at moment - analyzing whats happening and not jumping to conclusions - its funny how people get lost in their subconcious and start spinning around. I am thinking and trying to make more money - so i need to leave country which i will tell you is almost impossible as NON EU citizen . But i am looking for ways because i am high deegree/quality employee - and I WILL FIND WAY.
What happend
- Body is more relaxed
- I got back in shape - down on body fat 11% and having atheltic look again
- Diabetes is under control in great way
- Been angry most of the time on some small things
- Conflict with a lot of people ( always had but now on higher level )
- Constantly working on my dream ( i was always really hard working person - but now i have clarity when i am doing something "its like matrix - i see code" )
- When i want something i am working on it ( always did this - but now have calmness and as i mentioned in upper row - i have feeling that i know what i am doing and i am not spinning around )
- Working skills jumped in last 2 months more than in last 8 months
- I am thinking about making more money all the time, so i started working on going out of country - going trough some really roght stuff because of this - i am working + 4 more hours on already 10 working hours every day including sathurday and sunday - getting a lot of rejections because OF BEING NON EU CITIZEN but i will find a way.
- Its all about bussnis , literally thinking only about that - forgot about anything else.
- Girls, approaches become easier and smoother - like hot girls "belong" to me ... and if i want them just come and introduce myself
-I am not talking anymore a lot - just sitting and listening - when i want to say something i say it direct and short. People arent complaining or saying anything even though they should maybe because i am not like that - so i am expecting that in future
- More taken care of - hair/skin/clothing always in place
- More cleaning of room, apartmant - tidier
- Angry/depressed a lot - like i am having no tollerance for people who are close to me to act like idiots ( by idiots i mean like children - THEY ARE NOT ALLOWED TO DO THAT cause they are not children)
- on the other hand more carring towards younger people
- Wanting to help people who dont have money - i need to make money first
- Diabetes under great control
- Walk is more calming relaxing , like i am walking somewhere alwways with a mission ( have mission since age of 16 - but now like i am walking towards it when i walk )
- Getting looks from people - yestereday girl was passing with her boyfriend i reammeber shirt ( have no idea why - it was strange ) - so i went to toilet and someone tapped me on sholder - i turned and it was her . She gave me her number on paper, and told me "call me" she was hb 9 really nice body.
- Vivid dreams of future, fighiting , loosing - then "new friend" coming ( random people in diffrent dreams but noone close to me ) and helping me with things cause they are right.
- Less going out , sitting at home and thinking ( before i went 5 times a week out even though i work 10h per day + workout 1h - i would go out and not sleep)
- Enjoy being alone more.
- When i am out i am really enjoying everything - even air that i breath
- Having warm feeling inside me and need for partner - which i didnt have for i think 5 years
- almost forgot how it feels like to have a girlfriend ( not just friends with benefits).- Mood swings
- New ideas
anyhow this pretty much sums it all in STAGE 2
Stage 3 - starting tommorow.
