08-20-2013, 01:28 PM
Day 23 of stage 3: I have noticed that this stage has hit me later than the previous two. The first half felt like nothing was really changing then the last week it really started to go.
Life has been pretty crazy recently. I'm out there trying to push my boundaries and challenge the beliefs I have held onto. I know one of them is that getting intimate with a girl only happens inside of a relationship. There is this huge pressure I feel to make sure that I really want the girl before I ever even try to kiss her. It puts a lot of pressure on me to make a decision before I really even know the girl. I have noticed that there are two versions of a girl. The version when you are just friends and then the version where you have had a physical connection of some sort. Its like I don't even know whats in the package before I buy. Anyways, I have been trying to have more fun with women and not take things so seriously.
Over the weekend I was out every night. Friday night I was out blues dancing for the second time ever. I have been really focusing on having fun while dancing. I get all caught up in my head trying to lead moves properly and forget to have fun. Blues dancing really helped because I didn't really know very many moves. I just went out there and danced like a goofball all night. The girls were still having a lot of fun even though I didn't really know what I was doing.
I walked up to a woman and pulled her onto the dance floor. The first thing I said was "I don't follow rules" and started dancing. She laughed and we spent the whole night flirting with each other. Another girl there came over and sat right next to me and started talking to me. By the time we left she said that I knew more about her than anyone else in the room.
Last night I ended up walking home with the girl I talked about a few posts ago. The one that I sat there an listened to all of her problems. Well, as much as I did to end up in the friends zone, she stood in front of me last night with those kiss me eyes anyways.
I could spend hours writing stories that happened over just this weekend but I think I will sum it all up by saying that I'm getting myself into a bunch of trouble now
Life has been pretty crazy recently. I'm out there trying to push my boundaries and challenge the beliefs I have held onto. I know one of them is that getting intimate with a girl only happens inside of a relationship. There is this huge pressure I feel to make sure that I really want the girl before I ever even try to kiss her. It puts a lot of pressure on me to make a decision before I really even know the girl. I have noticed that there are two versions of a girl. The version when you are just friends and then the version where you have had a physical connection of some sort. Its like I don't even know whats in the package before I buy. Anyways, I have been trying to have more fun with women and not take things so seriously.
Over the weekend I was out every night. Friday night I was out blues dancing for the second time ever. I have been really focusing on having fun while dancing. I get all caught up in my head trying to lead moves properly and forget to have fun. Blues dancing really helped because I didn't really know very many moves. I just went out there and danced like a goofball all night. The girls were still having a lot of fun even though I didn't really know what I was doing.
I walked up to a woman and pulled her onto the dance floor. The first thing I said was "I don't follow rules" and started dancing. She laughed and we spent the whole night flirting with each other. Another girl there came over and sat right next to me and started talking to me. By the time we left she said that I knew more about her than anyone else in the room.
Last night I ended up walking home with the girl I talked about a few posts ago. The one that I sat there an listened to all of her problems. Well, as much as I did to end up in the friends zone, she stood in front of me last night with those kiss me eyes anyways.
I could spend hours writing stories that happened over just this weekend but I think I will sum it all up by saying that I'm getting myself into a bunch of trouble now
