08-07-2013, 01:56 PM
(08-05-2013, 06:54 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote:(08-05-2013, 03:21 PM)mat422 Wrote: Today was unusually rough. Over the weekend I worked on some music. Hit a creative wall, got pretty frustrated, and from there things seem to have gone south a bit. I really have a hard time coming back to work from the weekend. But today was bad. My guess is because I left the weekend feeling incredibly frustrated because of the music. Against my better judgement I had a cup of coffee this morning just so I could make it through at least half the day. When I crashed from that my mood plummeted even more. I don't know what it is with coffee, but it makes me severely depressed. I won't do that again.
How I feel right now. I'm just hoping I wake up tomorrow feeling better. My memory was shot today, couldn't get my work done properly, and excessive worry about my future crept back in as I realized I had no interest in my current job at all. At least by the end of the week I'll be moving onto stage 4, so that's something to look forward to.
Yeah man, coffee is the devil, at least for me. If you need a "pick-me-up" drink, try matcha tea. It's ridiculously expensive, but it's also ridiculously healthy and there's no crash, at least I've never experienced one. It's gotta be brewed carefully though. 175 F temperature, and they recommend a special whisk though I just use a spoon.
But yeah, just try to focus on your future. If you want to leave your job, oddly enough that job is a vital part of the plan. Hope that makes sense.
I'll check that tea out. I feel like lately I've just been trying to live in the present more. My future is still really unclear and thinking about it tends to cause me anxiety. Then again maybe I'm confusing thinking about the future with worrying about the future. I grew up constantly worrying, so sometimes I have trouble separating the two. This job, it's definitely been a great opportunity, but it just doesn't feel right. The problem is it's good pay and I'm already in debt from student loans. I'm gonna have to work either way, so I might as well stick with a job that I can tolerate. Meanwhile I'll keep my eyes open.
