07-26-2013, 05:10 PM
(07-25-2013, 06:28 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote:(07-25-2013, 06:25 PM)mat422 Wrote: Yeah, too much analyzing always screws me up. Funny you should mention focusing what I want in life. I was thinking about that today. I'm still not sure. Part of it is the depression messes with my ability to enjoy things or find pleasure in them so sometimes my inner compass is off with regards to finding a path. But one thing I know for certain is I love making music. So at the very least I've got that in my life.
Oh yeah? Are you currently making music? What kind of music do you make?
Sounds to me like you've got your path already to be honest. Maybe you just don't think you'll get what you want out of life by pursuing it?
I'm trying my best to make time for it. I'm usually pretty burned out from working and the last thing I want to do is stress myself out by forcing myself to work on stuff. I'm into electronic music, so I'll make all different stuff, but usually I make drum and bass. And then sometimes I'll work on hip hop.
I'm just not sure where it could actually lead me though. You can't really make a living off of being an artist unless you are exceptionally talented and you know the right people. I just have to keep exploring possible options. Music is a really strong part of my life, if I don't get a chance to make music I feel like something is missing.
It's a bad feedback loop I've got though. I'll be depressed which makes it harder for me to enjoy things, so I can't do them, but because I can't do them I get more depressed. I'm trying though.
