07-21-2013, 05:09 PM
Patti Wrote:I actually get debilitating anxiety that brings on intense nausea. This past time I could hardly get out of bed for 2 and 1/2 weeks. I was vomiting every morning, basically nothing because I couldn't eat anything. Understand that it's not just the sub but also my life in coordination with them. The sub just seem to make me too weak (for now) both emotionally and physically to be able to deal with situations that arise here. I think the thing is for me Mat, if I lived by myself and I might be able to push through. But I don't have the luxury of time or aloneness and I just have too many people that depend on me, to be broken down to be rebuilt by the subs (right now). I have to be one of the strong people in my family. I do think I'll use them again when things calm down here and I also believe it can be a good thing to take a subconscious break. I've been listening consistently to one sub or another for about 2 years now. I had to go back on medication but I kinda think that might not be such a bad thing for when I do start to listen to the programs again. It might help to keep my anxiety at bay a little. I can handle a lot of what the subs brings but anxiety that strong that brings on nausea like that I just can't handle. I guess I have some deep seated issues that are possibly complex.
I completely understand. Sorry things are that rough. That's a tough situation to be in. Hopefully the medication helps out.
(07-21-2013, 03:04 PM)Shannon Wrote: I have encountered one other person who had a feedback loop of fears. Her fear was of both success and failure, AND of being attractive and of being unattractive. I've been working with her using hypnosis, but we are not able to get together often enough that I am getting very far just yet. Her issue is weight, though, and we are making headway. I have spent 8 years trying to understand why she is so resistant, and through hypnosis I have learned more in 2 hours than I have in the previous 8 years. The time has come.
I'm planning to rebuild OGSF as a 5G/OE, and in fact today have been doing R&D on the next version of the OE toward that goal and others. The new implementation of the Optimus Engine incorporates a couple of things BAMM uses to fantastic effect, and so far my models consistently show that it has better results than V1. I'm not done optimizing the V2 implementation yet, but I may actually be able to build OGSF as a 5G today or tomorrow. I think that would be very helpful for you to use on your fears, Patti.
5G OGSF sounds promising. So this feedback loop of fears isn't that common? Fear of success and fear of failure seem similar, but it seems like fear of success is the more irrational of the two. [/quote]
