07-14-2013, 06:12 AM
(This post was last modified: 07-14-2013, 06:19 AM by SargeMaximus.)
(07-14-2013, 05:58 AM)mat422 Wrote: The other thing is, I feel drawn to this. I can't describe it that well, but it's my path. Deep down in my gut I know this is the right thing to do. I kept assuming that my reluctance to stop using the sub was due to dependence, but I think it was actually my gut telling me I was straying from the correct path when I thought of quitting. I think maybe I've moved past that resistance, I'm not sure.
I think the perfectionism has lessened. I'm feeling a lot better with where I am, but at the same time I feel good about my continual growth.
I've still yet to determine if it's a gradual change with these subs and I realize it later or I keep pushing and pushing until resistance breaks and all the insights come flooding in. Sometimes I swear I go to sleep one way and wake up another.
Yeah totally, I've experienced this too, as well as feeling ok with where you are. What stage are you on?
