07-13-2013, 12:02 PM
Update
Day 20-21
okay one week since my first introduction and post
I tend to listen Alpha male during day around 6-7h and aura of sexiness around 5 hours in night ....
I am feeling better since my last pots - have ups and downs
No dreams just one ... Was fighitng with metal soldier giant robot, but couldnt defeat it ... i punched and punched and punched ... i reamember waking up and my hands were still moving ...
Beside that every time when i am at home and listening to this ( it plays on my computer ) - close my eyes on bed and immediatly i start seeing some stuff ( i.e i see me walking on street but around me i see aura which is like 10x bigger than me and is walking like giant shadow around me very manly - strange yeah i know
so since then what has happend ...
I am more alone dont reammber being this alone for long time, spending time with myself and enjoying - more focused for sure, dont tend to be on some "Auto-pilot" mode but rather i am more present.
When i walk on street girls tend to look at me or approach me and ask me something, guys are saying "hi" even though i dont know them or i saw them couple of times but they never said hello. I am more genuine ( always been talkative) - also i ask myself more "What would i like to do?"
Also my job is drasticly changing - i will be very open about this - always had to much quality in my work - but never understood - now i am starting to be understood. And when people see what i am doing they would approach and say "Wow"
Planning to change the position and move to another country soon, preparing my CV. Finally decided its time.
I am more calm, and sometimes feel energy vibing outside of me.
I have to be very blunt/open now and ask a question.
I have been reading peoples journals and most of them are talking "OH girls stated notcigin me, i am talking ..." BUT VERY rarely i saw guys saying - "I approached a girl and we kissed, or we had sex" why so?
In my head i am starting to look for a girl now ( yeah real girl - dont want adventourse anymore) wanna chill and hold her for hand you know how it goes.
My lonelines is affecting me - i can say i am enjoying it a lot - before i was always out, doing sports, clubbing ,partying, seeking for adventoure. Now i feel more full and feel like i need something else
Lets see what this does, hope it will become even better
Day 20-21
okay one week since my first introduction and post
I tend to listen Alpha male during day around 6-7h and aura of sexiness around 5 hours in night ....
I am feeling better since my last pots - have ups and downs
No dreams just one ... Was fighitng with metal soldier giant robot, but couldnt defeat it ... i punched and punched and punched ... i reamember waking up and my hands were still moving ...
Beside that every time when i am at home and listening to this ( it plays on my computer ) - close my eyes on bed and immediatly i start seeing some stuff ( i.e i see me walking on street but around me i see aura which is like 10x bigger than me and is walking like giant shadow around me very manly - strange yeah i know
so since then what has happend ...
I am more alone dont reammber being this alone for long time, spending time with myself and enjoying - more focused for sure, dont tend to be on some "Auto-pilot" mode but rather i am more present.
When i walk on street girls tend to look at me or approach me and ask me something, guys are saying "hi" even though i dont know them or i saw them couple of times but they never said hello. I am more genuine ( always been talkative) - also i ask myself more "What would i like to do?"
Also my job is drasticly changing - i will be very open about this - always had to much quality in my work - but never understood - now i am starting to be understood. And when people see what i am doing they would approach and say "Wow"
Planning to change the position and move to another country soon, preparing my CV. Finally decided its time.
I am more calm, and sometimes feel energy vibing outside of me.
I have to be very blunt/open now and ask a question.
I have been reading peoples journals and most of them are talking "OH girls stated notcigin me, i am talking ..." BUT VERY rarely i saw guys saying - "I approached a girl and we kissed, or we had sex" why so?
In my head i am starting to look for a girl now ( yeah real girl - dont want adventourse anymore) wanna chill and hold her for hand you know how it goes.
My lonelines is affecting me - i can say i am enjoying it a lot - before i was always out, doing sports, clubbing ,partying, seeking for adventoure. Now i feel more full and feel like i need something else
Lets see what this does, hope it will become even better
