Zone's Alpha Male 5 Journal

[InTheZone]

The day got off to an awesome start but somewhere near the end, everything went down. I've been infatuated with the concept of death and why we are here recently. OGSF had me re-examine some of my views on life and it seems like AM is really slamming my face into the floor. I couldn't get over the thought that if I was hit by a bus tomorrow, what would I really leave behind.

I allowed the thought to stir around my mind and broke it down. My work is in software development and as such things change so much that there really isn't a legacy left with my work. In fact, I spend most of my time converting stuff over from old systems. So I pretty much spend my time removing other software developer's legacies.

In my personal life there are lots of relationships that would be affected but it still makes me wonder how much of an impact that would have over a longer term of time. I certainly don't wish that people spend the rest of their lives moping around after I'm gone but I do wonder what I leave them. There are no little Zone's walking around which would be an obvious legacy to leave behind.

In some sense I feel like there is something that I am here to do but I don't consciously know what it is yet.