07-04-2013, 07:13 AM
On to stage 3. Going through alpha is pretty rough. If I'd have to wager a guess after my last run through of 2011 there was a pretty big gap. During that time I might have reverted a lot because the changes weren't all that solid to begin with.
I've probably said this before, but I'm pretty sure I'm the resistant type. Consciously, yeah I definitely want to change. But deep down I know there is something that sabotages that a lot.
That's been most my life though. Me telling myself I'm being irrational and seeing it, but feeling unable to actually change it. Well I am doing something about it, it's just taking time. I tend to get frustrated a lot of the time. I've changed a lot of external things and while it's made a difference I just know that internally more work has to be done.
I've probably said this before, but I'm pretty sure I'm the resistant type. Consciously, yeah I definitely want to change. But deep down I know there is something that sabotages that a lot.
That's been most my life though. Me telling myself I'm being irrational and seeing it, but feeling unable to actually change it. Well I am doing something about it, it's just taking time. I tend to get frustrated a lot of the time. I've changed a lot of external things and while it's made a difference I just know that internally more work has to be done.
