Stage 2. This is a very familiar feeling. My life feels like it's turned upside down right now. And I'm a little on edge. If running through this alpha version is anything like the other times I'm guessing things won't smooth out until later stages. Or it's gonna take a few weeks for stage 2 not to be as rough.
I don't really have a desire to do anything lately. Just work and trying to relax. It's not really laziness, more like it's a lack of enjoyment/frustration when doing things. Right now I'm telling myself that things feel bad now, but it's just because I'm going through the changes. Trying not to have an attitude of these feelings being permanent. Which is hard because I feel like I've dealt with it for most of my life. The sub is definitely poking around in an open wound so to speak. For the time being I'm just gonna grit my teeth and take the bad days as they come.
Just wish I could put my life on pause for a while. It's hard to make it through the day sometimes.
Actually just realized I recently ran out of this supplement I was taking. Now that I ran out I realized how it helped my mood a lot. This isn't just mental, I'm pretty sure. I have to keep on top of the physical too. It's hard though, stress wears me out so my mood drops and once that happens it gets harder to take care of myself properly.
I don't really have a desire to do anything lately. Just work and trying to relax. It's not really laziness, more like it's a lack of enjoyment/frustration when doing things. Right now I'm telling myself that things feel bad now, but it's just because I'm going through the changes. Trying not to have an attitude of these feelings being permanent. Which is hard because I feel like I've dealt with it for most of my life. The sub is definitely poking around in an open wound so to speak. For the time being I'm just gonna grit my teeth and take the bad days as they come.
Just wish I could put my life on pause for a while. It's hard to make it through the day sometimes.
Actually just realized I recently ran out of this supplement I was taking. Now that I ran out I realized how it helped my mood a lot. This isn't just mental, I'm pretty sure. I have to keep on top of the physical too. It's hard though, stress wears me out so my mood drops and once that happens it gets harder to take care of myself properly.
