03-23-2013, 05:18 AM
I am really bad at keeping up with writing in my journal. I haven't even wrote a thing in it for months but I'm going to try and write more regularly.
I finished Alpha Male 5.0 and I got a lot of value from it, although I will definitely be doing more run throughs. Here are the things I noticed from Alpha Male:
• I'm better at beating procrastination.
• I think for myself and I don't just blindly assume that someone else's opinion or advice is correct, in anything I take all viewpoints into account. This is a big change from the days I was into PUA stuff and I assumed everyone else knew more then me. I now trust my instincts more and don't just follow someone else out of blind trust.
• I prefer to do things because I want to, not because I feel I ought to.
• I like to push myself to do things that I find difficult but I'm also kinder and more patient with myself.
• I took a course on cognitive behaviour therapy in reducing anxiety and worrying thoughts which helped immensely, alpha male pushed me to do this.
• In general I eat healthier and I'm more physically active.
• More then ever I'm a strong believer in letting people live as they want to and not interfering with other peoples lives.
• I enjoy my own company more.
• I'm making more money doing what I enjoy. More success seems to be coming my way.
• I've had to support a family member while they were in the hospital but we both came out stronger and much closer.
• Even though I sometimes can be really hard on myself I see the value in being kind to myself as I would be kind to others.
• Although we were always very close I feel much closer to parents and other family members.
• Conversation seems to flow much better for me (although this could also be sex magnet which I'm on at the moment).
• I had to do some new things I've never done creatively before for some projects I was working on, it scared me but not only did I get it done, the results were really great and the person I was working with was really happy.
• I seem less concerned with getting with women.
I'll definitely be doing Alpha Male again and I'm looking forward to how I grow when I next do it. Sometimes the growth was painful but I think I could make the growth a lot less so if I focus on what I want and then break it down into achievable goals.
Now I'm on stage 3 of Sex Magnet.
So far on Sex Magnet I'm noticing women are in general responding more positively to me. Also I feel more sexually attracted to myself, I appreciate myself more.
I tend to push myself to go out and be social even though I'm anxious and would rather stay home. I know I'll be happier in the long run by getting myself out of my comfort zone.
Last night was a good example. I traveled into London to meet a friend, we went for a few beers and then went on to his friends birthday party. I was quite anxious about getting out the house and going to the party. I was quite upset the whole journey there, thinking about what could go wrong and how I might screw up. However once I get there I had a great time. I had a great time catching up with my friend over beers. Once I got to the party I very quickly became comfortable and found that I did well at talking and being social. I also noticed that I'm a much better listener then I used to be. It was actually just a small group there, like six in total. There were two very attractive women there (both of whom I would have gone gaga over in the past) but I was much more relaxed and was unconcerned with wanting to get anything form them (my friend was interested in one of them anyway so there was no way I would pursue her).
Ultimately I'm excited about where sex magnet will lead me and I need to remind myself that I will get to where I want to be, it just might take time for things to shift.
I work at home which can make meeting people a lot more difficult but ultimately I think my life will be getting a lot better socially. I'm already getting a lot more opportunities to be social now which I'm very excited about.
I finished Alpha Male 5.0 and I got a lot of value from it, although I will definitely be doing more run throughs. Here are the things I noticed from Alpha Male:
• I'm better at beating procrastination.
• I think for myself and I don't just blindly assume that someone else's opinion or advice is correct, in anything I take all viewpoints into account. This is a big change from the days I was into PUA stuff and I assumed everyone else knew more then me. I now trust my instincts more and don't just follow someone else out of blind trust.
• I prefer to do things because I want to, not because I feel I ought to.
• I like to push myself to do things that I find difficult but I'm also kinder and more patient with myself.
• I took a course on cognitive behaviour therapy in reducing anxiety and worrying thoughts which helped immensely, alpha male pushed me to do this.
• In general I eat healthier and I'm more physically active.
• More then ever I'm a strong believer in letting people live as they want to and not interfering with other peoples lives.
• I enjoy my own company more.
• I'm making more money doing what I enjoy. More success seems to be coming my way.
• I've had to support a family member while they were in the hospital but we both came out stronger and much closer.
• Even though I sometimes can be really hard on myself I see the value in being kind to myself as I would be kind to others.
• Although we were always very close I feel much closer to parents and other family members.
• Conversation seems to flow much better for me (although this could also be sex magnet which I'm on at the moment).
• I had to do some new things I've never done creatively before for some projects I was working on, it scared me but not only did I get it done, the results were really great and the person I was working with was really happy.
• I seem less concerned with getting with women.
I'll definitely be doing Alpha Male again and I'm looking forward to how I grow when I next do it. Sometimes the growth was painful but I think I could make the growth a lot less so if I focus on what I want and then break it down into achievable goals.
Now I'm on stage 3 of Sex Magnet.
So far on Sex Magnet I'm noticing women are in general responding more positively to me. Also I feel more sexually attracted to myself, I appreciate myself more.
I tend to push myself to go out and be social even though I'm anxious and would rather stay home. I know I'll be happier in the long run by getting myself out of my comfort zone.
Last night was a good example. I traveled into London to meet a friend, we went for a few beers and then went on to his friends birthday party. I was quite anxious about getting out the house and going to the party. I was quite upset the whole journey there, thinking about what could go wrong and how I might screw up. However once I get there I had a great time. I had a great time catching up with my friend over beers. Once I got to the party I very quickly became comfortable and found that I did well at talking and being social. I also noticed that I'm a much better listener then I used to be. It was actually just a small group there, like six in total. There were two very attractive women there (both of whom I would have gone gaga over in the past) but I was much more relaxed and was unconcerned with wanting to get anything form them (my friend was interested in one of them anyway so there was no way I would pursue her).
Ultimately I'm excited about where sex magnet will lead me and I need to remind myself that I will get to where I want to be, it just might take time for things to shift.
I work at home which can make meeting people a lot more difficult but ultimately I think my life will be getting a lot better socially. I'm already getting a lot more opportunities to be social now which I'm very excited about.
