So I decided to go out last night to give myself a break from working and Shannon it still amazes me the changes that I have made with the help of your subs. Stuff that used to seem like such large unimaginable feats are almost second nature now. While I do still have some anxiety around really good looking women, most I can quite easily talk to and feel completely comfortable with.
Last night I had a friend who had a club opening so I headed out to that. I was a little uncomfortable at first as it had been a long time since I had been to a club but that soon faded and as soon as it did things changed people became a lot more accepting of me and had a tendency to want to include me in everything. I can understand now the jam that people get themselves into around neediness. They need validation and people won't give it so they try harder to get it which makes people give them less validation, this was the spiral I used to get myself into. Then now that I validate my self the neediness is gone and people want to give me validation even though I don't need it.
We ended up leaving that club and going to another. I found myself chatting away to a lot more random people than I would have in the past and just relaxing and flowing with it like it was no big deal. I then met this group of girls and started chatting away with them for 10 minutes or so before pulling them up for a dance, after about 5 minutes of dancing I started hooking up with one of them . It seemed effortless and unplanned and very much in the moment. 5 minutes later or so they decided they wanted to go home and the girl I was hooking up with grabs my hand and just say "You're coming home with me" I tease her a little and we laugh then jump into a taxi. This is the first time I have ever gone home with a girl from a club and it all happened in under 30 minutes. Before even hooking up with a girl in a club seemed like a major deal and now it just is what it is, some harmless fun.
So on the business front, I've been really enjoying the learning to code an android app. I've done a little Java in the past but the way its set out is quite different so its been keeping my mind a buzz and I'm finding more and more I actually have to force myself to take time away from the project to get a balance in life. I've got my first few views done and have decided that I'll use a cloud based MySQL server coupled with a light weight web service layer. I'm liking these days how I keep going even when things get tough.
On the weight front. I'm losing a little to much per week at the moment. I've been losing on average 3-4 pound a week for the last 2 weeks. While I'm still building muscle as the weights I'm lifting are steadily increasing, I do have some concerns it may possibly be water retention. I'm going to watch my water intake for the next few weeks just to make sure I'm getting in enough.
Edit: ive also been talking to a few people about the app im building and its interesting to hear how it could save them alot of time. Discussing it with people has really provided some great feedback on what else can be added or improved upon
Last night I had a friend who had a club opening so I headed out to that. I was a little uncomfortable at first as it had been a long time since I had been to a club but that soon faded and as soon as it did things changed people became a lot more accepting of me and had a tendency to want to include me in everything. I can understand now the jam that people get themselves into around neediness. They need validation and people won't give it so they try harder to get it which makes people give them less validation, this was the spiral I used to get myself into. Then now that I validate my self the neediness is gone and people want to give me validation even though I don't need it.
We ended up leaving that club and going to another. I found myself chatting away to a lot more random people than I would have in the past and just relaxing and flowing with it like it was no big deal. I then met this group of girls and started chatting away with them for 10 minutes or so before pulling them up for a dance, after about 5 minutes of dancing I started hooking up with one of them . It seemed effortless and unplanned and very much in the moment. 5 minutes later or so they decided they wanted to go home and the girl I was hooking up with grabs my hand and just say "You're coming home with me" I tease her a little and we laugh then jump into a taxi. This is the first time I have ever gone home with a girl from a club and it all happened in under 30 minutes. Before even hooking up with a girl in a club seemed like a major deal and now it just is what it is, some harmless fun.
So on the business front, I've been really enjoying the learning to code an android app. I've done a little Java in the past but the way its set out is quite different so its been keeping my mind a buzz and I'm finding more and more I actually have to force myself to take time away from the project to get a balance in life. I've got my first few views done and have decided that I'll use a cloud based MySQL server coupled with a light weight web service layer. I'm liking these days how I keep going even when things get tough.
On the weight front. I'm losing a little to much per week at the moment. I've been losing on average 3-4 pound a week for the last 2 weeks. While I'm still building muscle as the weights I'm lifting are steadily increasing, I do have some concerns it may possibly be water retention. I'm going to watch my water intake for the next few weeks just to make sure I'm getting in enough.
Edit: ive also been talking to a few people about the app im building and its interesting to hear how it could save them alot of time. Discussing it with people has really provided some great feedback on what else can be added or improved upon
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