DMSI 3.2 Magnus

[Magnus]

I've been testing TUW-P18-NN a fair bit lately and lets just say the results are interesting. I'll be posting a report or two on it in the coming week but I have noticed that in general all people both men and women just want to talk for longer. There's subtle signs of attraction from women but people in general just keep asking me questions.

People do that because they're attracted for a couple reasons, and they're not sure how to deal. Men are attracted because they sense you are the one who has access to all the women... women do it because they, too, sense that, and they want to give you an excuse to pick them up. I see that effect quite a bit.

Thanks Shannon that makes sense and seems to go along with all my testing results so far of TUW-P18-NN. Its now become my favorite to test because I find it helps me to break down social barriers that I still have a little trouble with. I've actually found its helped me to be a little more talkative as well.

So I've noticed a few more changes crop up. I've noticed I've lost some of my jealousy, I usually get very jealous of my brother because of his circle of friends and ease at making them as well as being the leader. Last night I was out with him as some of my friends from highschool were as well. People were talking to me about me and the amount of respect they have for him and how hes honest and so on. This time instead of feeling jealous I felt pride in calling him my brother and instead of trying to boost myself up by making up lies to make myself seem "better" I was just able to casually chat with them about my brother. This was a huge but subtle change and ties in with not boosting my own ego through over exaggeration or straight lies. I was just able to be honest.

A few of the guys at the party I went to used to bully me at high school and its bizarre how that dynamic has changed I had one that just wouldn't talk to me and another that was kissing my ass per say. It was actually a real turn off and I didn't much feel like talking to him. I have organised to catch up with a couple of the guys from high school as well.

I've found I've been more honest and not caring so much what people think. For example this girl I was talking to last night knows my sister and I was talking to her about how my sister comes to me and we have chats about guys and I give her advice. Before I would have been way to embarrassed to say that to any girl let alone a good looking one because it wasn't "cool" enough. The girl from auzzie is now a FWB whenever she comes over to NZ. I set my rules down straight off the bat and i'm glad I did rather than lead her along like I would have done in the past. The dynamic is so different now as well, I get messages like 'You better not have a girlfriend when I come over as I really want to have some fun with you'. In the past I would have kept things secretive or kept it like that for a week then broke into relationship mode but now i'm sticking to my guns.

Lastly and most importantly I've become more emotionally stable. The highs aren't so high and the lows aren't so low, I'm a lot more balanced and at peace within myself. This for me is a big one and i'm not sure if its from the sub or the diet as I have dramatically changed my diet for the last month and diet can have a huge impact on mood.

Edit: I'm also getting a little scared around my next run through of AM, I'm afraid that it may take away the leaps forward in socializing that I have made and push me back in to a hermit like state. Even though AM's still a good 6 months away (I'm going to run overcome guilt, fear and shame first) It still sits in the back of my mind at times