Thanks Yuri will take that into account.
Well once I cleared out of the little rut I was in (with the help of the depression relief BWE). I've started to notice a few things. I've just realized that I've been out at social events every night this week, these seem to be popping up more and more from people I haven't heard from in ages as well. I also realized I don't need to spend as much time alone to feel recharged anymore as in I can talk to people now without it being so draining. I'm also more honest about things in general not hiding things away so much. Although I still struggle with telling my parents about my emotional states that I go through. I think this may be validated though as their response is quite often harden up and just get on with it. I have been a lot more honest about other things with them though. They were there when I was telling a story about getting to tickets for no current inspection on my car which is something I would have been so afraid of doing before because of fear and knowing that they wouldn't approve of it.
Anyway I think after WM a proper run through of depression relief aid is in order as depression is something I would like to kick for good. It holds me back a lot more than I realize and when I go through my stages of it I tend to dig myself a great big giant black hole and keep digging until I pull through it. It holds me back from seeing the changes that I've made in my life and myself as well and hits my self esteem like a bulldozer.
By the way Shannon the work you are doing with ERoS is awesome and sounds like you are really making some major breakthroughs. I especially like the part about one of the tester getting his first girlfriend, now that's something to be proud of.
Well once I cleared out of the little rut I was in (with the help of the depression relief BWE). I've started to notice a few things. I've just realized that I've been out at social events every night this week, these seem to be popping up more and more from people I haven't heard from in ages as well. I also realized I don't need to spend as much time alone to feel recharged anymore as in I can talk to people now without it being so draining. I'm also more honest about things in general not hiding things away so much. Although I still struggle with telling my parents about my emotional states that I go through. I think this may be validated though as their response is quite often harden up and just get on with it. I have been a lot more honest about other things with them though. They were there when I was telling a story about getting to tickets for no current inspection on my car which is something I would have been so afraid of doing before because of fear and knowing that they wouldn't approve of it.
Anyway I think after WM a proper run through of depression relief aid is in order as depression is something I would like to kick for good. It holds me back a lot more than I realize and when I go through my stages of it I tend to dig myself a great big giant black hole and keep digging until I pull through it. It holds me back from seeing the changes that I've made in my life and myself as well and hits my self esteem like a bulldozer.
By the way Shannon the work you are doing with ERoS is awesome and sounds like you are really making some major breakthroughs. I especially like the part about one of the tester getting his first girlfriend, now that's something to be proud of.
The only person in life that can ever hold you back is yourself. So get out of your own way and start living the life you always dreamed of
