12-29-2012, 01:04 PM
(12-29-2012, 11:10 AM)alphatrial4 Wrote: I just realized, the reason my ex clouds my vision of how I want to relate to women, is because she is holding on to this monogamous image, and since I value her, I go with her values instead of my own core values.. out of fear of hurting her. Since it would hurt her to see me with various women, I recoil from that scenario because I don't want to hurt her. Fear of hurting her is at operation big time.. which is funny because with most people I really just speak my mind. Only the closest few present a real problem..
BANG! I think you hit it on the head, there. I'm glad you're giving AM5 a fair shake, because making myself my top priority is a HUGE benefit I've seen from the program. I'm certain that my ex will be hurt to discover it when I've found a new girlfriend, and I don't let that stop me from meeting new women, because I won't sacrifice my happiness to prevent her from experiencing negative emotions. The fact is that those emotions are part of her life, her grieving process, and existence. They also allow her to move on to find her own happiness in other relationships and hopefully find one that works for her and her partner.
If I did, I would be tremendously limiting my own happiness while also contributing to her own emotional stagnation.
Finally, there are many women you may date over your lifetime: don't deny them and yourself the pleasure of those relationships!
Fear is a liar.
There is nothing noble in being superior to your fellow man; true nobility is being superior to your former self. -- Ernest Hemingway
There is nothing noble in being superior to your fellow man; true nobility is being superior to your former self. -- Ernest Hemingway