Alpha Male Training (1st Run) [AM 5.0]

[Tiesto]

Stage 2 Summary:

• The first week of Stage 2 intensify the negativities I got from Stage 1, and it made me wonder about the way subliminals work, it seems pointless that I did ASC, BASE, and other subs that have programming that boosted my confidence, because all that confidence seems to just fade to nothingness

• This feeling of low self-confidence is making me scared to act in a confident manner, I’m scared that if I act dominant and do whatever I want, people will despise me, and when people despise me I’m scared that no one will help me when I’m down (especially in times when I’m in a major trouble, broke, and jobless), I feel like an incredibly pathetic wimp right now.

• My “neediness” is turned up to the maximum, and for some reason I’ve also been seeing so many hot girls, and I want them all badly.

• I’m feeling an increased in irritation and intense anger, I’m getting pissed off at a lot of things and at myself.

• Around the middle of Stage 2, I keep getting thoughts reminding me not to get involved in petty gossiping and putting other people down. Although I still find myself guilty at doing this very thing myself, especially in my new workplace, where everyone seems to love to play the blaming game, and saying shit about each other, I have become dragged along with it.

• On the plus side, I realized I’m becoming more grateful, I’m grateful for all the rough and uncomfortable experiences I’m going through in my life at the moment, because it is training me to be a tougher person for the future.

• I’m also grateful that I still have friends who are willing to help me up when I’m down.

• I’m feeling an increase in a sense of responsibility, like if something needs to get done, then I will be feeling restless if I haven’t done it yet, or I haven’t done it in the best way I possibly can.

• I’m becoming confused, or more like unsure, how to behave like an Alpha Male, it is like that out-of-sync feeling, in between 2 worlds, I want to act like an Alpha, but I’m not an Alpha. I’m still learning and feeling my way around, looking for the right tuning where I can settle down and finally understand that “This is the way of the Alpha, and this is how an Alpha act and do things”

• A lot of frustrations have been coming up, especially in my life situation, but I realized this is a good thing, I’m going to use this frustration as the trigger and fuel to create changes in my life. The more I get frustrated, the more determined I am to do my best, and achieve my goals to be successful.


After going through the brutal treatment of Stage 1, this Stage 2 of AM follows through in roughing me up. I see why some people feel like quitting AM, and why these early stages is called “boot camp”, I got to experienced it for myself to truly grasp the understanding of what the AM veterans had been through.

I understand why Shannon thinks that AM in 5G/HST/SOS may be too hardcore for first time user, but I definitely would love to get my hands on the next AM (version 6.0), especially if it includes ‘Overcome Fear, Guilt, and Shame’ built in within.

I’m sure not everyone will have experiences as rough as this, but now I feel like I’m going through hell, but fortunately I also know the best way out is to keep going, so I’m not quitting. Although honestly I’m kind of scared what kind of a ride the next stage will bring. I better prepare myself mentally for the next wave.