Disconnect from negativity within

[mat422]

Decided to go see a therapist. I still have to see which ones my insurance covers. Hopefully I can get a decent one. That's the thing about therapists, it's really hit or miss.

I figured I'm better off trying that not trying at all. Worst case scenario I'm back to square one. Best case scenario I get better. I don't really have much to lose. Worth a shot I think.

I kind of forgot how long I've been listening to the overcome fear sub. Probably gonna check that out after I'm don't posting here. It's really small changes. But I have a tendency to get easily overwhelmed and I'm not sure if that's fear or just a lot of confusion. I've just been thinking about life lately and the matrix we live in. I think if I was completely above it, I'd be happy. But it really sucks seeing things, but still not having that ability to overcome it. Not that I feel like it's hopeless, it's just a feeling of being stuck. It's kind of like not really having much direction on top of dealing with the social anxiety and depression that comes along with it. So I feel like once I lose some of that I'll start seeing things more clearly.