AM 5.0 Assessment (Not a Diary)

[Yuri]

Aram's suggestion seems valid if you practice enough and have fun with it. Being patient with yourself is necessary in acheiving goals and figureing out what you want to do.

You say you want to help people though.. Yuri, do you practice giving with no attachment on a daily basis? I had to do that for a long while and it felt wierd.. and now I do these things naturally. however, I don't think I do it so often it could really change alot of people's perspectives on things and life in general. I probably don't do it enough to make a positive change but I am in balance with myself now I feel like. What I can do though is instead of give things to others or pump up people and their emotions I can truly inspire them by the things I do. So now I really have a strong desire to prove people wrong especially my parents. I may be holding on to some things in the past but this desire is also keeping me fairly clear because I am seriously prioritizing the things I do and managing my time wisely. Like, what will I do when I get home.. what am I going to have done by the end of the year.. where would I like to be in 5 years.

I do not have everything planned out though. I just know I want to make lots of money and I can. I want to make 1 billion dollars in 5 years. Call me insane but I can do it. maybe not in five years but that's what I'm going for. I know what I love.. but I'm not too excited about my 9 to 5. I'm grateful.. but want do really do something with my life. So how about inspire others with my own success and help others as much as I can along the way. I have to put some things aside that I love to do now.. because I need time for practice. it's an excuse now but I also need to work through some fears as well. In the mean time I'll make lots of money

What do you want to do? Like Aram said.. just start asking yourself questions. I know you've done this before but think of something you'd like to do that would help you to continually grow and make progress. Be an inspiration to others. Do you like to draw? Do you like surfing? Do you enjoy music and play an instrument? Balance your life out with hobbies.. you might find something you really love. Do it and let it kill you. Surrender to it completely at all times when doing the thing you love to do. You may not make money by doing it.. but if you do it enough you will. Or you can just make lots of money and figure out how you are going to make lots of money!

My subliminal suggestions for you are (in order): Extreme gratitude and appreciation, Overcome Fear 1.1, then Happiness and joy.

And you are doing alpha male now so finish that. This is what I can suggest. It was only about 2-3 months ago where i felt completely lost and almost slipped into depression.

In the mean time kick ass at your 9 to 5. Do the best job you can, be the best employee you can, but stay as true to yourself as possible and never let anyone walk over you.. not even your boss(es). But leave everything better than you found it. (I'm being sort of hypocritical because I need to clean my bathroom >.< )

I hope I shed some light on the situation.

EDIT: i would consider ASC 5G as well

When I truly searched within, these couple of days are transforming points in my life I must say, the only reason I felt what I felt and was burning inside to help people was because I was feeling useless and it was a lack in me that wanted me to do this, when I truly understood that and realized it, I simply transcended it, now this dose not mean that I don't want to help people it simply means when I choose to do it, it will be because it is the right thing to do and not fill some lack inside me of.

gladly spiral I am not forced to be in a 9 to 5 job .