AM 5.0 Assessment (Not a Diary)

[Yuri]

this might not be helpful but im not sure ive been plagued by this question since my first run through of am and every time i think i found something it didn't like it. When you strip out money or some lame 9 to 5 job your left with the old do what you love thing. i think it just kind of falls into your lap, but im not sure. So i am going with i love to do to, until i make money off it. in the mean time ill keep my lame 9 to 5 job to pay bills. lol

Here is the problem with me woceyes, I believe a 9 to 5 job was created to delude you same with school same with college, funny they all got nearly the same amount of time.

and here is the case you wake up early in the morning go to that job that actually represents nothing to you and then come back at 5 with some traffic maybe even 6, you are so tired and bored out of your skull that you need to relax for a bit watch some tv or sleep for an hour its already 7 and its dinner time already then its 8 and i'm not even adding up the time if you needed to do some small chores and toilet time.

what time do you have left for yourself? 1-2 hours max? and your mind is still not clear by that time and therefore you cannot really think straight with those 1-2 hours.

and you have that 1 or 2 day off that u just wait for to release all the tension that was created by that week alone and you do it by friends girls or w-e you do, but after that comes the same cycle all over again.

its funny how in ancient times when someone would say I am on the journey of self knowing it would be considered great, now they would consider you a lunatic.

and it is true and sad that it has become a need for people to have that job just to pay there bills.

and i believe doing what you love should be the normal and not something that everybody looks for, and helping others in need and doing the right thing should be essential.

and my problem is i neither know what I love nor do i know how to help people and to me it has no relation to money.