DMSI 3.2 Magnus

[Magnus]

Dealing with some fears was easy i.e. fear of heights I want sky diving and bunny jumping. Others weren't so easy. I used to approach a lot of girls as a way to overcome that fear but what I found when doing that was that I was approaching girls but putting on an act, I wasn't being real. This was because of my shame and my fear that if they found out the real me it wouldn't be ok. Sure it got me some girls but never any that were healthy

So the last couple of nights have been insane. Some good things some bad things. Tonight I was out at a party of someone I met last night. I had the hostess who was trying to hook me up with all her friends. Then on the car ride home my friends girlfriend was feeling me up while my friend was in the car. I didn't really know what to do. I knew she wanted me but this was my friend and I didn't want any of this to happen so quietly said to her you have to stop and at the same time didn't escalate in any shape or form.

Today I was out at a cafe with friends and ended up making the waitress giggle without having said anything funny at all.

This seems to be happening more and more lets see where this gets to in the next few months.