08-09-2010, 12:03 AM
Having trouble sleeping, but feeling like I can start communicating again, so I'll post and then go back to bed.
Had a dream a few days ago in which I was telling someone how amazing the woman magnet program was, and how much it had changed and affected my life. I woke up surprised, because I only remembered that snippet of that dream, and usually I don't remember any of my dreams, but it was so vivid that it seemed like it was not a dream. When that happens I sometimes wonder if I am not actually talking to someone "on the other side". Oddly, I have a blank hole in my visual memory of where that "other person" would be. Hmmm. But the funny thing is, when I woke up, I realized that everything I said to whomever it was... was true! I hadn't realized how social it was making me. This last week, I have surrounded myself with friends to keep my emotions stable, and it's been very effective.
Also, research on the secret program has been getting results from both of my testers. It does not appear to work quite how I had imagined it would, but the results appear to be rather obvious.
I'll be trying to work on the next phase of the video subliminal experimental programs a little bit, and test the water for how much work I can do. The ideas I have are pushing me, but I also now that keeping myself busy is just hiding the pain I have left to deal with emotionally. I am going to have to try each day to feel, face and purge some of this grief and pain, and hopefully I'll be able to get work done to help me not think about it for the rest of the day. Not sure how much energy I'll have for that though.
Had a dream a few days ago in which I was telling someone how amazing the woman magnet program was, and how much it had changed and affected my life. I woke up surprised, because I only remembered that snippet of that dream, and usually I don't remember any of my dreams, but it was so vivid that it seemed like it was not a dream. When that happens I sometimes wonder if I am not actually talking to someone "on the other side". Oddly, I have a blank hole in my visual memory of where that "other person" would be. Hmmm. But the funny thing is, when I woke up, I realized that everything I said to whomever it was... was true! I hadn't realized how social it was making me. This last week, I have surrounded myself with friends to keep my emotions stable, and it's been very effective.
Also, research on the secret program has been getting results from both of my testers. It does not appear to work quite how I had imagined it would, but the results appear to be rather obvious.
I'll be trying to work on the next phase of the video subliminal experimental programs a little bit, and test the water for how much work I can do. The ideas I have are pushing me, but I also now that keeping myself busy is just hiding the pain I have left to deal with emotionally. I am going to have to try each day to feel, face and purge some of this grief and pain, and hopefully I'll be able to get work done to help me not think about it for the rest of the day. Not sure how much energy I'll have for that though.
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The scientist has a question to find an answer for. The pseudo-scientist has an answer to find a question for. ~ "Failure is the path of least persistence." - Chinese Fortune Cookie ~ Logic left. Emotion right. But thinking, straight ahead. ~ Sperate supra omnia in valorem. (The value of trust is above all else.) ~ Meowsomeness!
The scientist has a question to find an answer for. The pseudo-scientist has an answer to find a question for. ~ "Failure is the path of least persistence." - Chinese Fortune Cookie ~ Logic left. Emotion right. But thinking, straight ahead. ~ Sperate supra omnia in valorem. (The value of trust is above all else.) ~ Meowsomeness!
