10-28-2012, 02:14 PM
(10-27-2012, 02:06 PM)Spiral Wrote: lol...my sub rotation has changed once again. BTW Mat, do you feel generally happier so far? I know it's been a few days but i've had this sense of uncomfortableness. I've been pretty anti social and I feel like I owe it to myself to enjoy things and people much more..
Definitely happier. Not off the walls euphoria happy haha, but I feel good. Part of that is just something I've struggled with for a long time which is anxiety. Especially when I graduated high school in 2009, there was just this blanket of fear. It's not an easy feeling to shake at all. People will tell you to relax or stop worrying, but it was like no matter what I did I couldn't drop it. And that tires you out after a while, and the more burnt out I got the less energy I had to push past that fear.
Just my 2 cents, being uncomfortable for me usually is just energy that needs to be directed somewhere. The type of person I am, this might be true for you to, is that I have to express myself or do something to release that energy. I'm not anti social, but I'm certainly no extrovert. I enjoy hanging out with people, but I need my own time to pursue my own passions.
I'm naturally a creative person. Lately I've been working on producing my own electronic music. It's just one of those things where it builds up for a while and I just need an outlet. I need to do something. I guess that's part of being an introvert, my time alone is where I derive my most pleasure from. But it's all about balance really. The phrase anti-social tends to get thrown around a lot when extroverts finds introverts behavior strange or not normal. Just remember to do what you want to do, not what the majority of others do.
