10-25-2012, 06:45 PM
So running overcome fear has me feeling pretty good. I honestly didn't expect it to affect me this fast, but I did honestly want to rid myself of that fear.
So results so far. I'm able to speak without second guessing or intensely analyzing what I said. I'm starting to realize just where the fear had affected me and I didn't even realize it. My anxiety levels have dropped, I no longer feel that feeling of being suffocated by fear. This alone has given me a lot more relaxation. I've been feeling a lot better, I'm sure because the fear is being replaced like what the sub says.
Looking back, I really felt it, like a bad feeling in the pit of my stomach. It was just this overwhelming sense of dread and worry. At times it made my life unbearable, I couldn't think straight and I felt paralyzed.
Also I realized that fear held me back in ways that I honestly never thought of. I ran the ASC sub before this, I feel like I was cultivating a way more confident personality, I really felt it. But I had fear associated with actually being that confident. So it's like the fear was blocking a part of me that I wanted, but the fear kept telling me "no if you do that something bad will happen". That's the interesting thing about fear for me at least. The fear, when I had it full force, really made me feel like it was bad to be doing what I was doing. But now that I feel like I'm above the fear so to speak it all just seems so irrational. I honestly can't think of why the fear was there, it just was and it just stunted my growth severely. It's one of those things where it only makes sense once you don't have the problem anymore. It's like, why was I afraid of becoming more confident again? I can't understand it at all, the fear was just so incredibly illogical, no wonder I had such a hard time with it.
And one more example. I had this weird problem where I couldn't listen to multiple genres of music otherwise I felt bad. In hindsight this could have been a very mild form of OCD. I never felt really free to choose what I wanted to listen to, it was more based on what I had been listening to and sticking to that type of genre. Anyway since running this sub that's disappeared, I can just listen to whatever I feel like without worrying. In general I feel my obsessive tendencies have decreased a lot because the driving force behind those was fear, if I don't do x y and z something bad's gonna happen. But it doesn't, that was just the fear speaking.
It's only been about 2 days. I'm really liking the direction of this sub. I feel like it's really getting to the heart of the issue I've been wrestling with for a while now. I feel like my mind knows exactly what fear is because I've been struggling with it, so destroying it is something I'm happy to do. It seems like such a simple solution, just killing fear at the roots, I honestly thought it seemed too simplistic. But I guess judging it from the conscious mind perspective is the wrong way to go about it. Maybe this is exactly what my subconscious needed to hear.
So results so far. I'm able to speak without second guessing or intensely analyzing what I said. I'm starting to realize just where the fear had affected me and I didn't even realize it. My anxiety levels have dropped, I no longer feel that feeling of being suffocated by fear. This alone has given me a lot more relaxation. I've been feeling a lot better, I'm sure because the fear is being replaced like what the sub says.
Looking back, I really felt it, like a bad feeling in the pit of my stomach. It was just this overwhelming sense of dread and worry. At times it made my life unbearable, I couldn't think straight and I felt paralyzed.
Also I realized that fear held me back in ways that I honestly never thought of. I ran the ASC sub before this, I feel like I was cultivating a way more confident personality, I really felt it. But I had fear associated with actually being that confident. So it's like the fear was blocking a part of me that I wanted, but the fear kept telling me "no if you do that something bad will happen". That's the interesting thing about fear for me at least. The fear, when I had it full force, really made me feel like it was bad to be doing what I was doing. But now that I feel like I'm above the fear so to speak it all just seems so irrational. I honestly can't think of why the fear was there, it just was and it just stunted my growth severely. It's one of those things where it only makes sense once you don't have the problem anymore. It's like, why was I afraid of becoming more confident again? I can't understand it at all, the fear was just so incredibly illogical, no wonder I had such a hard time with it.
And one more example. I had this weird problem where I couldn't listen to multiple genres of music otherwise I felt bad. In hindsight this could have been a very mild form of OCD. I never felt really free to choose what I wanted to listen to, it was more based on what I had been listening to and sticking to that type of genre. Anyway since running this sub that's disappeared, I can just listen to whatever I feel like without worrying. In general I feel my obsessive tendencies have decreased a lot because the driving force behind those was fear, if I don't do x y and z something bad's gonna happen. But it doesn't, that was just the fear speaking.
It's only been about 2 days. I'm really liking the direction of this sub. I feel like it's really getting to the heart of the issue I've been wrestling with for a while now. I feel like my mind knows exactly what fear is because I've been struggling with it, so destroying it is something I'm happy to do. It seems like such a simple solution, just killing fear at the roots, I honestly thought it seemed too simplistic. But I guess judging it from the conscious mind perspective is the wrong way to go about it. Maybe this is exactly what my subconscious needed to hear.
