10-10-2012, 11:55 AM
Tiesto, as long as you keep moving forward you are guaranteed to get better. I've yet to run through AM 5.0 but it looks amazing.
Anyway I've been thinking about how I should start pursuing the things I want to do in life. I've always had an interest in boxing. I don't know why, but it's just one of those things I've always wanted to try. Of course one of the things that held me back from pursuing that was just rationalizing all the time. I thought I just wanted to do it to toughen up or because I needed to prove something by being able to fight. But all that rationalizing was just fear in disguise, the truth is I didn't have the courage to pursue it. It's hard work, you have to be in really good shape, you have to be willing to get beat up for a while before you get better, and like anything in life it's not easy. And honestly being able to defend myself is an added bonus to taking up boxing. Especially with the few times I sparred I realized how badly I froze up because of the fear and I want to make sure if I'm ever in a situation I can protect myself or someone I care about.
What really made me think about this is I'd watch boxing on tv. I found myself with this burning desire to do that. But my fear of failure got in the way again. I knew if I joined a gym I'd inevitably fail and getting beat up physically really shakes up my self confidence. For me I've felt incredibly weak for most of my life. It's like if I start off being a horrible boxer and just having trouble fighting back, I'll feel even worse because then I'll feel really defenseless and weak.
I mean I've learned a lot of technique on my own and I've practiced on my own, could I defend myself in a street fight? Maybe, I don't know. A lot of winning a street fight is just the mentality, the guy with less fear or more ruthlessness is going to win. I'm a very level headed guy, if I can diffuse a fight with words I will or better yet just walk away. But we all know that's not always the case. I know I have the technical knowledge, but when it comes to action my worst fear is it feeling like one of those dreams where you are punching in slow motion.
But like I said I do enjoy boxing and I don't see it as a brutal sport. I see it as a game of chess. So my fear is just holding me back from actually doing what I want. But I'm going to join a gym eventually once I get my life more sorted out. I kind of wish I didn't have this desire to box sometimes because it's really difficult to push past the fear and it gets upsetting when I feel like I'm structuring my life around the fear instead of going for what I want. I can't rewind time, but I wish I started younger. I mean 21 isn't too old to start, but I definitely had this passion since I was around 16.
Anyway I've been thinking about how I should start pursuing the things I want to do in life. I've always had an interest in boxing. I don't know why, but it's just one of those things I've always wanted to try. Of course one of the things that held me back from pursuing that was just rationalizing all the time. I thought I just wanted to do it to toughen up or because I needed to prove something by being able to fight. But all that rationalizing was just fear in disguise, the truth is I didn't have the courage to pursue it. It's hard work, you have to be in really good shape, you have to be willing to get beat up for a while before you get better, and like anything in life it's not easy. And honestly being able to defend myself is an added bonus to taking up boxing. Especially with the few times I sparred I realized how badly I froze up because of the fear and I want to make sure if I'm ever in a situation I can protect myself or someone I care about.
What really made me think about this is I'd watch boxing on tv. I found myself with this burning desire to do that. But my fear of failure got in the way again. I knew if I joined a gym I'd inevitably fail and getting beat up physically really shakes up my self confidence. For me I've felt incredibly weak for most of my life. It's like if I start off being a horrible boxer and just having trouble fighting back, I'll feel even worse because then I'll feel really defenseless and weak.
I mean I've learned a lot of technique on my own and I've practiced on my own, could I defend myself in a street fight? Maybe, I don't know. A lot of winning a street fight is just the mentality, the guy with less fear or more ruthlessness is going to win. I'm a very level headed guy, if I can diffuse a fight with words I will or better yet just walk away. But we all know that's not always the case. I know I have the technical knowledge, but when it comes to action my worst fear is it feeling like one of those dreams where you are punching in slow motion.
But like I said I do enjoy boxing and I don't see it as a brutal sport. I see it as a game of chess. So my fear is just holding me back from actually doing what I want. But I'm going to join a gym eventually once I get my life more sorted out. I kind of wish I didn't have this desire to box sometimes because it's really difficult to push past the fear and it gets upsetting when I feel like I'm structuring my life around the fear instead of going for what I want. I can't rewind time, but I wish I started younger. I mean 21 isn't too old to start, but I definitely had this passion since I was around 16.
