10-04-2012, 12:02 PM
(This post was last modified: 10-04-2012, 12:05 PM by LionMonkey.)
Stage 6 - Day 28,
I got my confidence back by reminding myself that I am f***ing hot but this time I'm more aware of my arrogance.
The girls in my class are giving signs of interest again and I feel comfortable walking into a room with a lot of people, who looks at me again. I'm also more freely saying whatever I want.
I now want to walk into others than move myself so they can pass (I did when I had the plaster.. it's like a avoiding feeling of being seen or touched). It's like I seek it and I like it. It's exciting and somehow fun.
When I noticed I wanted to do this, people now gives me space and if not we just bump into each other with our shoulders.. I also started to bump into quite a few girls, which is pretty interesting...
It's like they are like "who is this guy?" or "what are you doing? hmm I kinda like that" and I'm like "WHAT?!" or "yeah.. that's right"
All this is of course in my own perception. It's what I believe in my body and mind 100%
It's amazing how much of it is about what you think about yourself most of the time.
I didn't think much when I had my plaster on my face and I must have subconsciously been telling myself downgrading things. Either way, when you don't socialize with anyone and have been "hiding" for two weeks, you aren't in a very good spot.
Oh and focusing on yourself, of what you are thinking and just be aware of it and enjoy the presence with pride and sexiness rather than that girl or that thing etc. did also wonders.
Experience of the past I came to remember...
- I remember a time when I was angry.. very angry because my phone got stolen and I knew who took it. It boiled inside me and I wanted with my whole body to hit the guy who I couldn't get evidence to f*** him, yet I held it inside me. When I looked around in the room in that state and got eyecontact with a girl, the girl would stare.. like.. "ravage me" lol
I got my confidence back by reminding myself that I am f***ing hot but this time I'm more aware of my arrogance.
The girls in my class are giving signs of interest again and I feel comfortable walking into a room with a lot of people, who looks at me again. I'm also more freely saying whatever I want.
I now want to walk into others than move myself so they can pass (I did when I had the plaster.. it's like a avoiding feeling of being seen or touched). It's like I seek it and I like it. It's exciting and somehow fun.
When I noticed I wanted to do this, people now gives me space and if not we just bump into each other with our shoulders.. I also started to bump into quite a few girls, which is pretty interesting...
It's like they are like "who is this guy?" or "what are you doing? hmm I kinda like that" and I'm like "WHAT?!" or "yeah.. that's right"
All this is of course in my own perception. It's what I believe in my body and mind 100%
It's amazing how much of it is about what you think about yourself most of the time.
I didn't think much when I had my plaster on my face and I must have subconsciously been telling myself downgrading things. Either way, when you don't socialize with anyone and have been "hiding" for two weeks, you aren't in a very good spot.
Oh and focusing on yourself, of what you are thinking and just be aware of it and enjoy the presence with pride and sexiness rather than that girl or that thing etc. did also wonders.
Experience of the past I came to remember...
- I remember a time when I was angry.. very angry because my phone got stolen and I knew who took it. It boiled inside me and I wanted with my whole body to hit the guy who I couldn't get evidence to f*** him, yet I held it inside me. When I looked around in the room in that state and got eyecontact with a girl, the girl would stare.. like.. "ravage me" lol
1. Do whatever you want.. risk whatever your gut tells you because.. you know you have good intentions.
2. Pressure forms the man.
3. Clarity gives space for better decisions.
