10-01-2012, 11:25 AM
Things are looking up. I've been feeling better without trying and to me that's the greatest feeling ever. I think the hardest aspect of dealing with depression is wanting to just pull yourself out of it. And this just leads to me repressing my emotions and powering through the negativity. Which isn't bad, especially when I need to be able to. But there is such a profound difference between keeping the bad feelings at bay and just not having to use so much willpower to keep going.
It just makes me realize how the subconscious beliefs are just so important to get straightened out because from there things start to flow. And it's not to say that I expect life to be easy. I know everyone has difficulties in life. But there is such a tremendous difference in having a challenge vs feeling like you can't make it in life. If your mindset isn't very stable to begin with and then you take on challenges on top of that, you start to crumble.
I feel like some people look at it all the wrong way. That depressed individuals have to get out more or do something. That's their natural state! If they weren't depressed they would be doing those things. The solution is within the mind and fixing that first, so getting out and enjoying life doesn't feel like an obligation.
Anyway I just feel like the confidence is growing. I feel my fears have lessened which is strange. Because I think back to it and I try to replicate it and I just can't fathom why it was such a fearful thing. And I like it, because I feel like I'm not trying to be this way, I just am. It leaves me with so much more energy because my mind isn't preoccupied with using willpower to change how I feel.
It just makes me realize how the subconscious beliefs are just so important to get straightened out because from there things start to flow. And it's not to say that I expect life to be easy. I know everyone has difficulties in life. But there is such a tremendous difference in having a challenge vs feeling like you can't make it in life. If your mindset isn't very stable to begin with and then you take on challenges on top of that, you start to crumble.
I feel like some people look at it all the wrong way. That depressed individuals have to get out more or do something. That's their natural state! If they weren't depressed they would be doing those things. The solution is within the mind and fixing that first, so getting out and enjoying life doesn't feel like an obligation.
Anyway I just feel like the confidence is growing. I feel my fears have lessened which is strange. Because I think back to it and I try to replicate it and I just can't fathom why it was such a fearful thing. And I like it, because I feel like I'm not trying to be this way, I just am. It leaves me with so much more energy because my mind isn't preoccupied with using willpower to change how I feel.
