Stage 1 started off good. After a few nights of listening I went to some hotsprings with friends. I was talking to almost everyone who I come across, talked to a couple of sexy girls and had everyone responding well.
Since then it's almost like that was too much and i've had little desire to go far, last time I went out I was fairly anxious and today I had an urge to go out which I haven't the last few weeks much and I felt fairly anxious too. It's the same pattern, open up a bit or even have a day of high confidence like this then isolate and hide and not want to go anywhere for a while after that, and if I do I feel anxious.
In one shop I seen this woman and thought it was possibly someone I know, and I left and was sitting in my car thinking of going back to confirm but was feeling anxious. I eventually did and it wasn't anyone I knew, but I felt better not just running away and felt a bit better after that.
Still when i'm in this state I almost seem to project something that makes most people not talk to me, even in shops. But it seems I may still have been projecting something, I went into one shop and the woman working seemed to look at me in awe like she was going to say "how's it going". I said it to her and she didn't even answer at all which was weird.
I was getting annoyed thinking "well fuck her then" but then when I was walking out she's like "you didn't find anything?" and was all of a sudden friendly. So maybe she was anxious too. We just said a few lines to each other and I left.
Also been feeling a bit annoyed at things in general, a few days ago I was especially sensitive to everything emotionally. Feel a bit better now.
30 days doesn't feel long after 4 months of stage 0. I'm a bit over half way through.
Have no idea what stage 1 is doing now. I also yesterday had urges and thoughts to use something else, or another method like I used to. I didn't have that much on stage 0 so I assume it means something in stage 1 I want to run away from.
It wasn't as strong as say on AM6, so it's not a serious concern.. but it was coming up where it hasn't as much previously.
Since then it's almost like that was too much and i've had little desire to go far, last time I went out I was fairly anxious and today I had an urge to go out which I haven't the last few weeks much and I felt fairly anxious too. It's the same pattern, open up a bit or even have a day of high confidence like this then isolate and hide and not want to go anywhere for a while after that, and if I do I feel anxious.
In one shop I seen this woman and thought it was possibly someone I know, and I left and was sitting in my car thinking of going back to confirm but was feeling anxious. I eventually did and it wasn't anyone I knew, but I felt better not just running away and felt a bit better after that.
Still when i'm in this state I almost seem to project something that makes most people not talk to me, even in shops. But it seems I may still have been projecting something, I went into one shop and the woman working seemed to look at me in awe like she was going to say "how's it going". I said it to her and she didn't even answer at all which was weird.
I was getting annoyed thinking "well fuck her then" but then when I was walking out she's like "you didn't find anything?" and was all of a sudden friendly. So maybe she was anxious too. We just said a few lines to each other and I left.
Also been feeling a bit annoyed at things in general, a few days ago I was especially sensitive to everything emotionally. Feel a bit better now.
30 days doesn't feel long after 4 months of stage 0. I'm a bit over half way through.
Have no idea what stage 1 is doing now. I also yesterday had urges and thoughts to use something else, or another method like I used to. I didn't have that much on stage 0 so I assume it means something in stage 1 I want to run away from.
It wasn't as strong as say on AM6, so it's not a serious concern.. but it was coming up where it hasn't as much previously.
