Sadly the pattern of going to a porn binge is still coming up. It's a bit less though, and sometimes I go through similar things that trigger the pattern and it doesn't. But then eventually it seems triggered by small things.
I'm annoyed because it was just triggered a little, I hope to stop at once this time. But I wanted to go out tomorrow and see the effects of stage 1 after the first night. This will lessen it a bit.
Anyway, comments on stage 0.
The main things i've noticed.
-Alot less social media, after it increased quite a bit for a while. Since deleting x like a month or more ago I haven't gone back to it. I feel better from not looking at it constantly and also notice I hate the world and everything less. If I look on facebook groups I tend to avoid the post I know will be full of retarded comments and I tend not to want to reply to them anymore as it's not useful at all.
-My training and workouts have improved. I've had the urge to add another day of martial arts where I watch a video and do some solo stuff briefly. It's not as intense as my normal session but it's good.
-Less neediness and obsession around girls, still tends to get triggered when I go out somewhere at times and leads to the pattern of porn to cope with it, but not as much as before.
-Not going on the computer straight away in the morning, waiting until atleast 12 most days and doing other stuff instead.
I think there was maybe a couple of other things, but my head is feeling constricted and hard to think which it has all day, and porn didn't help on top of that.
I'm a little disappointed that the confidence, feeling grounded and masculine seems to have lessened since earlier in stage 0 where it felt more consistent. Not sure why that is. It seems the focus has gone more to focusing on myself like the things above.
Stage 1 - Started 15/8/26.
Finished and start stage 2 on 14/9/26.
I'm annoyed because it was just triggered a little, I hope to stop at once this time. But I wanted to go out tomorrow and see the effects of stage 1 after the first night. This will lessen it a bit.
Anyway, comments on stage 0.
The main things i've noticed.
-Alot less social media, after it increased quite a bit for a while. Since deleting x like a month or more ago I haven't gone back to it. I feel better from not looking at it constantly and also notice I hate the world and everything less. If I look on facebook groups I tend to avoid the post I know will be full of retarded comments and I tend not to want to reply to them anymore as it's not useful at all.
-My training and workouts have improved. I've had the urge to add another day of martial arts where I watch a video and do some solo stuff briefly. It's not as intense as my normal session but it's good.
-Less neediness and obsession around girls, still tends to get triggered when I go out somewhere at times and leads to the pattern of porn to cope with it, but not as much as before.
-Not going on the computer straight away in the morning, waiting until atleast 12 most days and doing other stuff instead.
I think there was maybe a couple of other things, but my head is feeling constricted and hard to think which it has all day, and porn didn't help on top of that.
I'm a little disappointed that the confidence, feeling grounded and masculine seems to have lessened since earlier in stage 0 where it felt more consistent. Not sure why that is. It seems the focus has gone more to focusing on myself like the things above.
Stage 1 - Started 15/8/26.
Finished and start stage 2 on 14/9/26.
