04-10-2025, 01:50 PM
(This post was last modified: 04-10-2025, 01:51 PM by Chris P. Bacon.)
Today is the last day in the off cycle.
So the off cycle has been pretty stable as far as emotions have been concerned, and today I realized how underwater I've been for most of my life when it comes to guilt, shame and fear. All of a sudden, it hit me how much they have corralled me more and more as time went by. By choosing not to address them at a conscious level, they have slowly eaten my lunch and sapped the joy from living.
I believe running OGSF has brought me to the place that I can finally see this fact, and that means that some major fears have been addressed. The next phase of this OGSF journey is likely to have some major personal growth involved in it and I'm going to start looking for ways to deal with guilt, shame and fear so I don't slip back into them. OGSF may address that but it would be nice to have some tools at my disposal when the inevitable opportunity to slip back into them appears.
I also feel like the changes are part of me and will stick around long after my OGSF run.
Another point to note is that OGSF doesn't feel as "flashy" as some of the other versions have. 6G is really doing it's job as far as keeping most of the work under the hood.
Despite the lack of "flashy" results, this will be the one that gets the most done.
Looking forward to tonight when I press play again.
So the off cycle has been pretty stable as far as emotions have been concerned, and today I realized how underwater I've been for most of my life when it comes to guilt, shame and fear. All of a sudden, it hit me how much they have corralled me more and more as time went by. By choosing not to address them at a conscious level, they have slowly eaten my lunch and sapped the joy from living.
I believe running OGSF has brought me to the place that I can finally see this fact, and that means that some major fears have been addressed. The next phase of this OGSF journey is likely to have some major personal growth involved in it and I'm going to start looking for ways to deal with guilt, shame and fear so I don't slip back into them. OGSF may address that but it would be nice to have some tools at my disposal when the inevitable opportunity to slip back into them appears.
I also feel like the changes are part of me and will stick around long after my OGSF run.
Another point to note is that OGSF doesn't feel as "flashy" as some of the other versions have. 6G is really doing it's job as far as keeping most of the work under the hood.
Despite the lack of "flashy" results, this will be the one that gets the most done.
Looking forward to tonight when I press play again.
