12-16-2024, 05:00 PM
(12-16-2024, 03:48 AM)Raz Wrote: Day 12
Since at least back to 5.8 G I had a mental bubble/barrier that would filter out anxiousness and the like, granting me a state of mental peace, tranquility and an innate sense of security. Interestingly, I notice this bubble fading with ongoing use of PM. Needless to say that I don't like this very much. Anxious stray thoughts are now entering my mindscape again from time to time, though I can still tune them out easily enough.
Interesting.
My first thought is that contexts are shifting towards being Masculine and you aren't used to it at this level, so you were fairly comfortable before but now that you're getting into a new way of being there is more baggage around that bringing up anxiety.
Kind of like I don't really have any issues talking to women socially, in my extended group and such.. but if it's women that i'm attracted to and that I want then all the fear comes up and it's suddenly different.
Like being in the world while more connected with your Masculinity you may not be used to, hence feeling a bit anxious at times.
