08-21-2024, 10:09 AM
I reconsidered and am gonna go for 5 loops of EHPRA, hybrid, 11/15 volume, from my phone come tomorrow.
I'm beginning to feel *some* optimism returning, feeling pretty good all things considered. Set up a session with my analyst for next Thursday, we're gonna have a lot to talk about (as usual after a break). Also I made some alterations to my stuffies and thingies regimen today.
I've got a translation job to finish up with tomorrow's deadine but I'm totally procrastinating, lol. At least singing practice went relatively well even though my crazy brother was distracting me by doing stuff. Can't wait to get my practice space back, hopefully this won't take ages!
I also signed up for a support group with elements of dance and movement classes for people who've been through a mental health crisis. There's an application process involved, I have a meeting on Monday. We'll see whether they'll have me (I'm actually worried I'm a little bit too together to qualify, but we'll see. It'd be nice to have a reason to socialize outside my immediate bonkers family and get out of the house every now and again).
What I don't like is that after my 2 cheat days my weight ballooned by nearly 2 kg according to my scales! (!!!) Hopefully it's only a temporary gain which will stabilizie after I stop cheating my diet, lol. They do recommend the occasional cheat day in calorie-deficit diets, though, to keep your metabolism running in high gear. Pah. Makes me feel like a fatso. I don't like feeling like a fatso.
I'm beginning to feel *some* optimism returning, feeling pretty good all things considered. Set up a session with my analyst for next Thursday, we're gonna have a lot to talk about (as usual after a break). Also I made some alterations to my stuffies and thingies regimen today.
I've got a translation job to finish up with tomorrow's deadine but I'm totally procrastinating, lol. At least singing practice went relatively well even though my crazy brother was distracting me by doing stuff. Can't wait to get my practice space back, hopefully this won't take ages!
I also signed up for a support group with elements of dance and movement classes for people who've been through a mental health crisis. There's an application process involved, I have a meeting on Monday. We'll see whether they'll have me (I'm actually worried I'm a little bit too together to qualify, but we'll see. It'd be nice to have a reason to socialize outside my immediate bonkers family and get out of the house every now and again).
What I don't like is that after my 2 cheat days my weight ballooned by nearly 2 kg according to my scales! (!!!) Hopefully it's only a temporary gain which will stabilizie after I stop cheating my diet, lol. They do recommend the occasional cheat day in calorie-deficit diets, though, to keep your metabolism running in high gear. Pah. Makes me feel like a fatso. I don't like feeling like a fatso.
"A man who is doing his True Will has the inertia of the Universe to assist him." - A. Crowley
