OGSF2: TIME TO FACE MY TRUE SELF

[Shannon]

Day 143:

Welp my summer vacation is finally starting, Not that it has anything to do with what I'm going to talk about but still..

My wish to make my own video games is becomming stronger.. However I'm still entraped in fear and high self doubt..

Pretty much fearing I will never start doing it nor being able to do it in the first place because I cant:

Draw Characters, Cant compose Music, Doubt I'm good at story writing mayby average at best..

I quess I can learn to code but it's not going to be easy since things are going to be hard to understand fast..

Mayby I could start simple by making a visuale novel game and learn how to draw first...

It's weird some part of me tell me to give up, Because I can't do it no matter how badly I want it.. But another Part tells me I should go for it.

Even more so after a friend of mine became succesfull with her dream of becoming a voice actress.. Wich honestly is really inspiring..

Oh well, to be fair I would never know if I dont try it.. Mayby one day after SD or AM6..

There is a difference between giving up and being realistic.  Realistically, it is most likely not a "one person job" to make video games anymore, because many people are good at one of those requirements, but not more than that.  That would mean that it is likely that your desire is based on a faulty premise, that you need to learn all of those skills.  If you learn one of those skills really well, you might find a job doing what you desire as a member of a team.    But you probably want to make video games because you think it'll be fun; the reality is, it's a lot of work.

If you really want to do that, pick one of those skills and master it.  Then see about getting a job making video games as that specialty within a group emplyed by a company that makes video games.  Otherwise, you might want to consider some other direction.