This growing feeling I’m experiencing is love. It feels like it’s fading in from the background, if that makes sense. It’s a feeling that is experienced all throughout my body and it changes how I experience everything. I suppose that’s true for all emotion though. But it feels like more than an emotion it feels like… an “experience”. Maybe it’s not just love, maybe it’s some kind of cocktail of stuff my subconscious is doing in response to OGSF2 that is creating this positive experience I’m feeling.
Everyday feels like insane progress right now. Really deep insecurities are coming up. I hope that this is a sign that I’m hitting emotional bedrock. I’ll go between transcendental enjoyment to grasping pain. Mostly I experience a state of just calm pain though. I think this is the optimal state that OGSF2 has me in to clear most of the time. The transcendental seems to be growing though. It feels like waves that are slowly getting bigger and lasting longer.
I told a coworker I have anxiety and they seemed suprised. They said I don’t seem like an anxious person. Also another coworker keeps insisting that I’m always on drugs, which I take as a compliment lol. Mostly the consensus I hear from people is they think I’m a calm person. It’s funny because actually I’m usually experiencing some kind of deep insecurity I’m dealing with. I guess OGSF2 is just good at creating a balanced pace of dealing with things.
Everyday feels like insane progress right now. Really deep insecurities are coming up. I hope that this is a sign that I’m hitting emotional bedrock. I’ll go between transcendental enjoyment to grasping pain. Mostly I experience a state of just calm pain though. I think this is the optimal state that OGSF2 has me in to clear most of the time. The transcendental seems to be growing though. It feels like waves that are slowly getting bigger and lasting longer.
I told a coworker I have anxiety and they seemed suprised. They said I don’t seem like an anxious person. Also another coworker keeps insisting that I’m always on drugs, which I take as a compliment lol. Mostly the consensus I hear from people is they think I’m a calm person. It’s funny because actually I’m usually experiencing some kind of deep insecurity I’m dealing with. I guess OGSF2 is just good at creating a balanced pace of dealing with things.
