05-20-2024, 03:17 PM
Just read the last two pages of this journal and was surprised how solid my writing feels. Glad I did because I was feeling kind of down and like nothings changing fast enough. No matter how much progress I’m making in the moment it always feels like there’s more and it’s never enough to get what I want.
Reading my journal helped me to noticed the progress I’ve been making, so thank you past me.
Some of the issues coming up are sticky. The pain tries to trap me in an apathetic box of avoidance and attachment. Even with OGSF2 this is tough.
Still optimistic. Even with me being down there still is an undercurrent of optimism. Most of my “down-ness” comes from impatience. I’m already sure I’ll achieve awesomeness. It’s just a matter of feeling like it’s not happening as fast as I want.
Reading my journal helped me to noticed the progress I’ve been making, so thank you past me.
Some of the issues coming up are sticky. The pain tries to trap me in an apathetic box of avoidance and attachment. Even with OGSF2 this is tough.
Still optimistic. Even with me being down there still is an undercurrent of optimism. Most of my “down-ness” comes from impatience. I’m already sure I’ll achieve awesomeness. It’s just a matter of feeling like it’s not happening as fast as I want.
