(05-19-2024, 01:40 PM)Shannon Wrote:(05-18-2024, 10:36 PM)MrGnome Wrote: Got it!
Because in the end I dont want to be dead, I want to be Happy,
Dont know how I will respond to 5.0G But I still to prefer to be safe then Dead..
Just remember that suicide is a choice, and it's always a bad one. It's a permanent solution to a temporary problem, and it hurts everyone who cares about you. I can speak having been on both sides of this fence, having had people I love commit suicide and having tried to do it myself during the depths of my depression back in high school and shortly thereafter. No matter what, there is a way to make things better if you're willing to ask for help. Sometimes you may need medical help, sometimes you may need psychological help, sometimes you may need therapy, and sometimes it will be your diet that leads to the issue, or some combination of these. But there is help, and you can ask for it.
I don't want you to try to grow too fast. That's like trying to heal too fast, and it doesn't usually end with the desired results. Yes, grow. Yes, push yourself. No, don't back yourself into a situation that makes you lose all hope and want to die as your only perceived escape!
Also, if you have seizures for whatever reason and you don't know for sure what triggers them, you have to be careful about inducing too much stress.
So I suggest that when you're done with OGSF v2 that you take a week or two off and then start using AM v6. It's pretty cheap to subscribe to, or you can buy it. This will be very helpful for you to not only begin the growth process in a less demanding and intense manner than AM v7 will offer, but it will help you make progress in the right directions while you wait for it to be built. You can make note of which stages are challenging for you and which are easier, and that will help you understand what you personally need to work on.
5G is nowhere near as powerful as 5.75G and later, but it's still no joke. Take it seriously with this program, because it's going to push you to expand your horizons and make changes to yourself, your life, your boundaries and your circle of friends. This journey isn't always fun or easy, especially if you're starting from "doormat" (as I did). But it's going to result in growth and improvement, and you're going to make progress and have your horizons expanded and learn how to handle and do a lot of things you may not have known how to do otherwise (such as set boundaries and focus on improving yourself).
And if you ever feel like you genuinely are contemplating suicide, stop what you're doing with subliminals immediately and let me know. I do not get the impression that you were actually contemplating suicide seriously from your previous post, but we still take that sort of thing seriously. There is no save/restore, undelete or undo for that action, and I guarantee you that it's not worth it when you can ask for help and find a solution instead.
I want you to grow and improve and develop yourself. I never want to see someone try to kill themselves.
Oh, and please please PLEASE read the directions and follow them with AM6!
Thanks Shannon,
I was thinking about that suicide but also quickly thinking about the people who would miss me and decided not to be worth it in the end, (so I wasn't really considering it but more playing with the idea.. was also hard to keep myself from crying in the buss..)
I just had a alot of dissapointments in a row..
luckly the missary ended last wednesday but I do need to find a better way with being hurt (other then being over the top aggressive or thinking about killing myself off)..
and I know I dont want to die either, I'm sure I can still handle the subs, I just need to stay strong and I should have used AM6 waay sooner instead of waiting for AM7 expecting just to solve my problems..
I also know now that I'm able to call people whenever I feel that bad again...
Wich is good, Because I really need to learn how to deal with the dissapointments in life especially if they come in (strikes/strokes?).
I also need to remember that my thoughts and feelings might not be fully myself since I got OGSF2 wich might mess with it till it got my feelings fixed..
I also would like to appologize for making everyone who read my last part and become worried.
1 thing is for sure, I still have a long way to go..
oh well I'm sure the next 3 month's and AM6 will help me alot with it.
even though I might have to get used to getting a lower voice from what i read from old threads.
(also I didn't saw the use instructions for AM6 on the shopping page.)
found it in the journal discussion though:
"For 5G, you set a comfortable listening volume using Ocean Surf, and make sure you can at least faintly hear the lowest volume areas and that the highest volume areas aren't too loud. That should be the loudest volume that is good for Ultrasonic format and still good for Ocean Surf and Trickling Stream formats."
I only miss the amount of loops and hours now hehe.
Never mind I found it:
"I recommend using AM for at least 8 hours"
