Day 69:
Last weak I got in this big mental battle, Where my fear to screw up and my memory of the excistense of self controll (ya know the part that says you had to end your break and start using it now) were fighting each other at the end the self controll part won,
so I got 4 days off now instead of 6, however I'm very tired right now, So I'm sorry if I make some grammer mistakes right now..
However it screws up the day that I invited a friend of mine over wich used to be in a day off but is now an on day?
(So how do I use The experience without harming someone else? this time I invited him to my own house..)
Also I have this very weird feeling of lots of fear yet feeling like things are gonna be okay aswell..
I also need to learn how to deal with boredom instead of eating it away..
Like I also need to find a way to get myself away from sociale media and it endless political discussions, Because that's also making me mental tired.. however I still wanna keep track on my friends and still have acces to past friends group...
Sorry if I write a little weird I'm very tired right now... Yet still felt like I needed to update..
that new brain and weight loss experience also look interesting but I'm still gonna follow the Path Shannon made for me.
(being absolute self confidence after this and alpha male 7 (6G) after this)
But yeah.. I can really tell that this version of OCGSF is way harder then version 1 was...
Kinda wondering if I'm gonna be tired forever with every experience..
not that being halve asleep is a new context for me though..
I also need to find a way to stop buying ice cream during hot whether because I really need the new Alpha Male Experience.
I really hope there comes a day when I fully stop being insecure and tired..
(heck mayby even go back to stop caring about politics again..)
Sorry the point of this long story is that I'm very tired.. Tired of everything... No worries I'm not thinking about ending my life : ).
It's Just that I cant wait till I'm no longer tired in life...
Last weak I got in this big mental battle, Where my fear to screw up and my memory of the excistense of self controll (ya know the part that says you had to end your break and start using it now) were fighting each other at the end the self controll part won,
so I got 4 days off now instead of 6, however I'm very tired right now, So I'm sorry if I make some grammer mistakes right now..
However it screws up the day that I invited a friend of mine over wich used to be in a day off but is now an on day?
(So how do I use The experience without harming someone else? this time I invited him to my own house..)
Also I have this very weird feeling of lots of fear yet feeling like things are gonna be okay aswell..
I also need to learn how to deal with boredom instead of eating it away..
Like I also need to find a way to get myself away from sociale media and it endless political discussions, Because that's also making me mental tired.. however I still wanna keep track on my friends and still have acces to past friends group...
Sorry if I write a little weird I'm very tired right now... Yet still felt like I needed to update..
that new brain and weight loss experience also look interesting but I'm still gonna follow the Path Shannon made for me.
(being absolute self confidence after this and alpha male 7 (6G) after this)
But yeah.. I can really tell that this version of OCGSF is way harder then version 1 was...
Kinda wondering if I'm gonna be tired forever with every experience..
not that being halve asleep is a new context for me though..
I also need to find a way to stop buying ice cream during hot whether because I really need the new Alpha Male Experience.
I really hope there comes a day when I fully stop being insecure and tired..
(heck mayby even go back to stop caring about politics again..)
Sorry the point of this long story is that I'm very tired.. Tired of everything... No worries I'm not thinking about ending my life : ).
It's Just that I cant wait till I'm no longer tired in life...
