04-22-2024, 12:11 PM
9/16 clicks is too much I think. Tried 2 days and it was too much. Taking a few days off then going back to 8/16.
Been feeling lonely lately. I’m living a solipsistic existence. No matter what I’ll never be able to communicate perfectly and anybody I’m with will be experiencing a different version of reality.
Lot of insecurity coming up with the overload. Feel like everyone secretly dislikes me and that I’m like the special kid that everyone pretends to like. Logically I know it’s not true, but it’s just shit I’m dealing with. Feel childish lately. But also been feeling more mature in some ways, like I’m coming out of a dream.
I also noticed my body language is very arrogant. I’m wondering if this is from AM6 or not, but it feels like irreverent royalty. There’s a dissonance between that unconscious body language and my conscious attitude towards people. I feel like I supplicate too much to compensate for my naturally confident demeanor.
Been really fuckin tired lately.
Been feeling lonely lately. I’m living a solipsistic existence. No matter what I’ll never be able to communicate perfectly and anybody I’m with will be experiencing a different version of reality.
Lot of insecurity coming up with the overload. Feel like everyone secretly dislikes me and that I’m like the special kid that everyone pretends to like. Logically I know it’s not true, but it’s just shit I’m dealing with. Feel childish lately. But also been feeling more mature in some ways, like I’m coming out of a dream.
I also noticed my body language is very arrogant. I’m wondering if this is from AM6 or not, but it feels like irreverent royalty. There’s a dissonance between that unconscious body language and my conscious attitude towards people. I feel like I supplicate too much to compensate for my naturally confident demeanor.
Been really fuckin tired lately.
