Woke up in the middle of the night to excruciating gut pain. I tried peptobismal but it didn’t help. I got the intuition that it was caused by me dealing with something on OGSF2. I was on my last break day and I guessed that I must’ve been dealing with some painful stuff, but the shield from OGSF2 must’ve faded. After booting up OGSF2 it helped a lot. It didn’t go away completely but I was able to go back to sleep.
I woke up a few more times but it wasn’t as bad, except for 1 time when I had to throw up so bad it reminded me when I was a young child and would have these throw up sessions in the middle of the night that were extremely painful. I don’t remember why I had these sessions, but they eventually just went away when I got older. My guess is that they were reactivated by whatever I’m dealing with and they must’ve been trauma based. Luckily I didn’t end up throwing up, but I almost did and it was awful, but then after the first dry heave it was almost like it slowly receded and I just went back to sleep.
I think I’m dealing with some severe early childhood trauma. As an early child I had multiple severely traumatizing experiences. I guess this is why I started experiencing the nausea since LTU6 anwhile back. Also can’t forget the gastrointestinal issues that have come up since OGSF1 (or maybe even OF… can’t remember) as well.
On a sidenote, I’ve been making steady progress. It’s mostly stuff involving the basic structure of who I am, my character, boundaries, stuff like that. I’m sure there were other good changes I’m not remembering now…
I woke up a few more times but it wasn’t as bad, except for 1 time when I had to throw up so bad it reminded me when I was a young child and would have these throw up sessions in the middle of the night that were extremely painful. I don’t remember why I had these sessions, but they eventually just went away when I got older. My guess is that they were reactivated by whatever I’m dealing with and they must’ve been trauma based. Luckily I didn’t end up throwing up, but I almost did and it was awful, but then after the first dry heave it was almost like it slowly receded and I just went back to sleep.
I think I’m dealing with some severe early childhood trauma. As an early child I had multiple severely traumatizing experiences. I guess this is why I started experiencing the nausea since LTU6 anwhile back. Also can’t forget the gastrointestinal issues that have come up since OGSF1 (or maybe even OF… can’t remember) as well.
On a sidenote, I’ve been making steady progress. It’s mostly stuff involving the basic structure of who I am, my character, boundaries, stuff like that. I’m sure there were other good changes I’m not remembering now…
