I’m finishing my last on day of cycle 2 today. So it’s been about 19/20 days so far.
Turns out guilt has been a massive blind spot for me. I’ve been mistaking it for fear and other times not even noticing it for some reason. I just had a massive clearing of guilt and it made me think that it being a blind spot had somehow hindered its removal.
For example I have this tightness in my throat which I thought was purely fear, but it turns out a lot of it is from guilt. In fact I think a lot of my inaction stems from not just fear and shame, but a lot of guilt. As a kid I was taught that I wasn’t good enough unless I got an A so I felt like I needed to be perfect. I was guilted and shamed for inaction as well imperfection. So what’s the point of taking action if it’s not perfect? I’m wrong so any action I take can’t be perfect, or eventually it won’t be perfect and I’ll feel inadequate.
Headaches and stuff like nausea I complained about on OGSF1 are improving. They’re build up of emotion and as I heal I feel lighter and in less pain in those areas. A clearing may involve tears and a clearing of the sinuses.
Things are progressing faster and deeper than expected. This is only a short taste of the stuff I’m working through. I’m extremely impressed with OGSF2 and 5.11g so far.
Turns out guilt has been a massive blind spot for me. I’ve been mistaking it for fear and other times not even noticing it for some reason. I just had a massive clearing of guilt and it made me think that it being a blind spot had somehow hindered its removal.
For example I have this tightness in my throat which I thought was purely fear, but it turns out a lot of it is from guilt. In fact I think a lot of my inaction stems from not just fear and shame, but a lot of guilt. As a kid I was taught that I wasn’t good enough unless I got an A so I felt like I needed to be perfect. I was guilted and shamed for inaction as well imperfection. So what’s the point of taking action if it’s not perfect? I’m wrong so any action I take can’t be perfect, or eventually it won’t be perfect and I’ll feel inadequate.
Headaches and stuff like nausea I complained about on OGSF1 are improving. They’re build up of emotion and as I heal I feel lighter and in less pain in those areas. A clearing may involve tears and a clearing of the sinuses.
Things are progressing faster and deeper than expected. This is only a short taste of the stuff I’m working through. I’m extremely impressed with OGSF2 and 5.11g so far.
